some things are worth letting go...

sometimes the hardest thing to do is to let go something that you've always wanted. u hav been trying to get that thing for very long but its time when you tell yourself- "hey.. forget it! get on with life n do what you do best!" As much as i dont want it to happen, i guess the time has come for me. like they always say, in life you don't always get what you want. I totally agree with it. no doubt at all. n i oso believe in live life with what you have and not what you want! it will be very contradictory if i tell u people oso not to give up in what you want and believe in. But HEY! its true too.

the bottom line is, you should how far you will be willing to sacrifice something in which you dreamt for. BUT then oso know that there are limits in life. once it has surpass the limit, then stop wasting your time and get on with life. let your dreams make u reach greater heights- so work for it but at no time let it control you. n how do you know wen ur a slave of ur dream? when you go against ur principles and priorites and play dirty just to achieve it.

influence i believe is something lethal. it has the power to affect people. either enlighten it with good things or poison it with evil things. it can and will change one's mind. so beware people! dun get influenced easily for most time it does more damage than good.

now for my priority check:
hm.. wat issit that i want now?!
1. Clear my Promotional Exams.
2. Excel in the sport i love most, rugby.
3. Support my friends!

another thing, some people think its good to know everything thats happening around you. let me tell u now its hell no! trust me on tis, sometimes it better not to know too much things. keep things simple so u wont have ur feelings hurt and confused.

hm... mabye the things i jus blog may be confusing and hav no link or irrelavant to you reading. if tats the case then hack it.

rest?!

been sleeping very late for the past few weeks. hav been either mugging or trg. promos are arnd the corner n i m getting use to do work after trg which is smth good. its gonna b hard though but i guess theres no choice. promos are jus arnd the corner n its time to work. nevertheless, rest is still just as important rite? so on fri i guess i was jus too tired n my body can no longer take it. i slept at bout 10.30pm n woke up at 11am on sat! felt as though my energy level has been restored. had a club game in the afternoon. singapore cricket club played against singapore recreational club. a good game though not tat impressive. n it was one of the most stressful game in my rugby life. cos it was the first time i had to play with 6 forwards in stead of the usually 8 man pack. scrums were not stable and kept wheeling. further more, less men in the break downs. one player got a red card and another got a yellow. thank god, we still won the game even though we played with 13 men in the field or at least with a man less then the opposition. nxt week game will be against bucks.

to the Melay Unit: I come in peace! LOL!

photo shoot!

yesterday went for photo shoot. i thought it was going to b like some boring thing but it turned out to be a super fun experience!!! meet lots of new people. one of them was john mark! super cool guy la. soccer dude from vjc. toked so much cock bout both of ur frens. then we used the computer in the room n surfed the web wasting time. i oso saw old frens. the photo we took were all damn nice. first time in my life ever gg 4 photo shoot.
1st they put make up on me. then they wanted me to look muddy as though i jus finished a rugby game. so wat they did, they put choclate syrup all over me! ahhh! it felt like yucks! but it smelled DELICIOUS! wen it was time to take photos, i was already very tired. worse, they made me pose n not move. its like even worse than rugby trg la. all the muscles cramping up! ouch! however, it is an experience i will never forget!

stand up for the champions!

i m soooo happy. on top of the world cos WE, sajc, won the national schools 10s!!! it was the first time i had the best tournament i ever had. haha. perfect. i guess everything went well. wat i was realli happy was that i scored 8 tries during the tournament. the newbies realli played very well n i mean every single one of them. mr ong said that it has been ages since sajc rugby won in a major tournmant. it has been a great honour for me to lead the team. also special thanks to our drop kickers who won got their kicks in to win the finals:
1. ALEX
2. MARC
3. SHERWYN (how in the blue moon u became such a good drop kicker sia?)

the weather didnt favour us though. it changed a few times. from raining to hot sunny weather and repeat a tat pattern for a few times. n bcos of tat i think i hav caught a flu or smth. don feel well now. haha.
the expression on every1's face when we won the national 10s make me felt like last yr wen we won the B div. the smile and joy on every1's face great. so lets now keep work together to achieve our main goal- u20 police cup.

BURNT OUT

hm.. i saw an article on the symptoms of burnt out.

Chronic fatigue - exhaustion, tiredness, a sense of being physically run down
Anger at those making demands
Self-criticism for putting up with the demands
Cynicism, negativity, and irritability
A sense of being besieged
Exploding easily at seemingly inconsequential things
Frequent headaches and gastrointestinal disturbances
Weight loss or gain
Sleeplessness and depression
Shortness of breath
Suspiciousness
Feelings of helplessness
Increased degree of risk taking

motivated

so far everything have went rather well for me. the people arnd me has surely make things better for me. thanks!
parent meet teacher session wast wat i expected. i expected to get scolding till the cows come home or smth. in the end the deputy principal didnt scold me at all but ADVICED and ENCOURAGED me to work harder. n wif great supportive parents of mine, i feel even more motivated to study harder! its realli nice to know ur parents are always by urside. through thick n thin. I LOVE THEM!!!!!!!! i thank god for the wonderful parents of mine.
hm.. wen i reflect wat they hav done for me.. no words can describe it. its jus too many. at times they can b naggy and unresonable but hey they always do wats best for u. no mother or father wld wan 2 see their child in trouble rite?!

friends, you guys hav oso always been there for me. thanks!!!!!

6th House Committee- u pple r the best! i know it wasnt easy running 3 major events in one term n only wif like 2 weeks interval after each event. but u guys hav perservered all the way. it was realli nice working wif every single one of you! i know it wasnt easy esp after 2 events wen most of us were already burning out. but hey! we did it!!!! :)

05S56- my class! i still love guys although u always disturb me. :p yupps. stay cool always.

OG35 (1st 3 mths)- hey! miss u guys alot.

ruggers- though u brought so much shit to me, ur still my brothers! try to stay out of trouble eh? n oso lets give our best during trg! :)

Shout out to MY FRIENDS:
keane- u make HOSE proud! haha! it was realli impressive to see how ur team played in the inter-house floorball finals! great job done!!!
caleb- must come toa payoh more often ah.
liang sheng- sorry eh for having A.P. the past few days.
eugene- ur finally *ahem*. i m so proud of u! haha. remember ah. rugby comes 1st. ;p
gerald- hey bro. take care of ur knees. nice to see u playing on wed! mus play our juniors at the end of the year ah! n we'll show them who's the boss.
phil- so our houses are now alliance! lets work together and kick *ahem*'s ass! hahaha!
tiff- where the 6th House at 6th Avenue?! muahaha.
jia ling- nice working together wif u! haha. its finally over! we r free people now. LOL!
geraldine- hey! stop disturbing me or else....... :p
hashim- my senior adivsor. thanks giving ur support to the hse com. can come for malay class anot? its boring without u!
my gd fren- thanks for listening to all my problems. it has been a blessing to know you! :) always stay happy!
guess time is out for me. i shall continue the next time.

2dae: SCC vs BLACKS [Div 2]

get serious

sometimes pple jus dunno when u r serious n wen ur not. when u mean wat u say n wen ur not. ohwell. nvm.

we had national day celebration. it was supposed to be the last major project of the 6th house committee to organise the feisty pursuit. bcos we had very small manpower when had a joint task execution wif the student council. therefore, on behalf of the 6th House Committee, I would like to thank the Student Council for thier help and support.
as forseen the feisty pursuit wld not be as rara cos they j2s are in their mids of preparing their prelims which is arnd the corner n further more, the econs students have their test after sch. i realli pitied them la. i mean they too need a break rite? anyways back to the rest. i believe everything went smoothly wif no major hiccups though during the race we had MIA (missing-in-action) civics group and to only find them mugging at one corner of the sch. a few other went to the reading room. some of them got kind of freaked out wen they saw me enter the reading room with a walkie-talkie and give tat "what are you doing here?" look. LoL! our job was supposed to be over after once the race ended but we worked over time. haha. seeing the school trying their get pple to the cafe to watch the concert, the 6th hse comm rendered their help n gather pple to the cafe. but unfortunately it rain n every1 had to be moved to the hall. so we then helped the sch again to move pple to the hall. haha! after the concert, had hse comm meeting.
then after tat went for lunch wif a few hse comm-ers at PS. after tat, planned to watch movie but all the movie tickets were like sold out so we walk arnd town n then LS n I last minutely decided to go lum's hse. then smth happen but shall not blog................................... his house is huge! thanks lum for inviting us. arthur, stef n i were in lum's room playing wif the com at the same time gossiping. tsk. muahahaha. then had dinner with lum. sorry lum i didnt eat. realli sorry k? stef, ls n i left early cos we were tooo tired. shared a cab home n the driver took us by god knows which ulu way to LS's house. n stef told me tat the total cab charge is $23. hahaha!

week

i havent been blogging of wat happened to me recently. mabye i m lazy. or smth some things are jus meant to be kept for myself. nevertheless let me summarize my week.
lots of things hav happened tis week. one thing for sure is that i m burnt out. i have been trg n playing without having a day rest since wed. i m totally dead.


mon was just like every other mon. during PE had napfa practice. we tried most stations. not tat tiring. u14 came down to train at our field. their semis coming up soon. against ri. mus win ah u14s! good luck! rugby trg was alrite. played touch rugby wif the j1s touch rugby gals. good experience for the newbies. i mus say the touch gals hav improved alot since we 1st played them. after tat had a mini fitness. pyramids- not tat bad. then the newbies were introduced to the rugby positions. advice for the newbies: watch lots of rugby games. esp wif the tri-nations now. get to watch some good action rugby.

nth happen on tue except i got a call from some1 tat needs help. in the end i didnt help. but found out lots of things which i didnt want to know. sad truth.

had a game wif the u14s on wed. it was the 1st time the new guys played. i hope they gained some experience. sch had a blood donation drive. onli 1/3 of the class came for GP cos the others were doin smth noble- donating blood. yeah. mr pang was like playing a search n rescue mission to find the missing 56-ers. LoL! smth realli stupid happened during GP. will not elaborate on it. yucks!

a day wif my class never look forward to is thurs cos it the longest day of sch. in the morn during assembly got some mass check. there was like 3 teachers inspecting a student. checking for hair n stuff. good thing i didnt get caught. then pe, did my napfa. 2.4km run was okay la. its like a 8 secs to an A la! so wasted. unfit. ahh. after sch had hse comm meeting. went alrite i presume. then most of them went to eat prata while caleb, jien n myself went to toa payoh hdb hub to get stuff for the feisty pursuit. had dinner wif caleb. haha!

fri the onli killer thing was the PT. then the malu thing: played soccer topless.

on sat morn was in sch preparing the feisty pursuit for national day. then afternoon had a rugby game. scc played wanderers. my team, scc won the game. so far we r undefeated. wohoo! then at nite went to watch tri-nations, NZ vs South Africa. Before the game started every1 was thinking how much will the kiwis beat south africa. but after the final whistle the tables turned. south africa beat the kiwis by 6 pts. wasted la. kiwis were generously giving away penalties and making deadly errors. ohwells.

sun, the same things i do like every other sundays.

nxt week is going to b very relaxing cos mon is half day, tue n wed got no sch. yeah.

"A dream is just a dream, A goal is a dream with a plan and a dateline." - Harvery Mackay

Choleric Personality

2dae during moral ed we did some personality thing. i found out i m a choleric person. haha. went back n found out more bout it. i even took another test to re-confirm it. n the results we the same. come to think of it. i realli fit the descriptions.

My 2nd results:

Overall:
Melancholy:8
Phlegmatic:3
Sanguine:9
Choleric:20

Strengths:
Melancholy:3
Phlegmatic:3
Sanguine:4
Choleric:10

Weakneses:
Melancholy:5
Phlegmatic:0
Sanguine:5
Choleric:10

Descriptions of a Choleric Person:
In a nutshell, You are the extrovert, the doer and the optimist.

Your personality strengths:
+You are a born leader, dynamic and active and have a compulsive need for change.
+You often feel that you must correct wrongs.
+You are strong-willed and decisive, independent and self-sufficient. You are not easily discouraged and can be unemotional when necessary.
+You are capable of running anything and exude confidence.

Your strengths at home:
+You are an expert in exerting sound leadership, establishing goals and able to motivate the family in to action.
+You always know the right answer and organise the household.

Your strengths in relationships:
+You have little need for friends and will work for group activity.
+You often lead from the front, organise and are usually right.
+You excel during emergencies.

Your personality weaknesses:
-You can be bossy and impatient. You are quick tempered, can't relax and can be too impetuous. -You enjoy controversy and arguments and won't give up when losing.
-You can come on too strong, are inflexible and uncomplimentary.
-You dislike tears and emotions and are generally unsympathetic.

Your weaknesses at home:
-You tend to over dominate, are too busy for your family and will often give answers too quickly. -You are impatient with poor performance and won't let children relax if you have any.
-You are likely to send them in to depression.

Your weaknesses in relationships:
-You tend to use people and dominate others.
-You make decisions on other people's behalf and you know everything.
-You can do everything better, are too independent and are overly possessive of friends and mate.
-You can't say sorry and, although you may often be right, you can become unpopular.


i tink i m feeling better now frm fri. but then. ah. nvm.

people!

2dae was so f$#ked up! please u pple (u know who u are)... get ur f$#king mentality rite. cos i m so f$#king pissed wif ur f$#ked up attitude tat i myself got f$#ked. so i u realli wanna f$#k arnd. let me tell u one thing f$#k off!

SCC tour

racial harmony day went well. we kept to the time given to us. the jc2s were jus super cooperative i mus say! to tell u the truth, i was rather surprised. but thanks to them they made our work much more easier. now i tink we onli left national day. 2 weeks time (i tink).

on fri. went on a tour with the Singapore Cricket Club (SCC) to negeri sembilan, malaysia. one word to describe the tour: great! i was like a very relaxing n enjoyable tour to malaysia. we went there to play in the Negeri Sembilan (NS) Sevens. we left singapore arnd 7.30pm n the 1st place to stopped was at KFC. god knows where the place is. the chicken was like so hot tat it actually burnt our fingers la. haha. every1 was like damn hungry but jus couldnt eat quickly cos it was tooo hot. countiued our way to negeri sembilan. reach there arnd 12 plus in the morning n to our total shock we found out tat we had a game the SAME day at 8.50am! quickly checked in n took our kit (our jersey, shorts n socks are all provided by the club) cos had to wake up at 6.15am to change n eat breakfast. ashraf was my room mate! alrite.

sat. woke up n it was raining! heavily! since the distance from the hotel to the field is very short. we walked to the field in the rain. taking into account the team has nv had proper training prior to the tour we didnt expect to do very well for the tour. yeah. 1st game was very messy. every1 was getting used to each other's playing style and communication was the major problem. nevertheless we won the game rather convincingly. 2nd game was at 12.30pm. so we walked back to the hotel, took a bath n hang our jersey n short. seriously, after the 1st game, i didnt want to wear my jersey anymore cos it really stinked n the size was XXXL. i was like swimming in the jersey la. during tat time, i took a quick nap. we met arnd 11 n went to the field to find out tat the team we were playing wif at 12.30 didnt come for the tourney. so it was a walkover n we won. so we had a last game to play for the day which was at 3pm. we decided not to back to the hotel worried tat they might push up the timings for the games. so we jus stoned tat n watch other malaysian teams play. last game. played very well. we trashed the team. rather impressive performance. after tat, we went back to hotel n went to the shopping complex which was opposite the field to chill. n opposite the field was a 24hrs A&W. there is nothing much to shop in negeri sembilan. i tink the best place was tat reject shop! haha. sell lots of good stuffs there though they were rejected goods. haha! at nite, had a dinner held by the organisers. some songs were nice but most were OMG! Bad! it was like arnd 11plus wen our team left cos we had a game at 8.30am tmr. tis means tat we had to wake up at 6am n oso my plans to watch the south africa vs aus game had to be sacrifised. but before gg to bed, the whole team went to A&W to eat WAFFLES there! though they took donkey years to serve us, the waffle was nice.

sun. woke up at bloody 6am la! i was super tired. havent been having enuf rest. but who cares. had a super light breakfast which was almost to nothing i ate. we yet again trashed the team tat we played. the was much more teamwork n an improvement in communication. after game, went back to hotel n continued eating my breakfast. then the rjc guys n i went to the pool to relax before our game at 12.30pm. the field was super soft n muddy. it was seriously very hard to run on n oso was a perfect place to collect injuries. haha. we won the quarters which was at 12.30pm. semis was against the might bukit jalil sports sch. a well known rugby power house in malaysia n the defending champs of the tourney. lost the game. though i tink we played hard. but luck wasnt wif us n tat team was obviously a better team. we quickly overcame the sadness n changed up cos we wanna go to malacca. haha. we went to mahkota parade to eat dinner at pizza hut. every ate like the speed of light la. wen the waiter let go of the pizza on the table. in 20 sec it went empty! we oso did some last minute speed shopping. then went back to singapore. reach spore very very late! but i still went sch.
the top try scorers of the team were Bryan n I with 4 tries each.
ok i tink tis entry is super long n its time to CRASH! super dead tired.

dreams.

sun after tuition, keane n i go makan at bugis. of all topics to tok bout under the sun, we ended up talking bout erm.. wat we gonna do wif the rest of our lives. we actually planned n even calculated to find the perfect age to graduate frm uni (if we go), work, get married n retire. super gay but interesting la. we even plan that when we reitre n hav grandchildren. the two of us would meet wif n talk cock while our grandchildren are playing at the playground! LoL! look how far we plan already!

i was reading something about dreams. something which is not really understood by man. it sets me off thinking whether do dreams really tell u what is going to happen to you in the future as in tell-tale signs? personally i don't quite believe in it. mabye for those people who dreams can true. its all a coincidence. i believe that dreams often let you know what you're trying to control in yourself during the day and that nightmares can be triggered by stres, anxiety, depression or medication.

another interesting article i came across, Why Students Should Sleep MORE! serious!
"New research by the University of Liege in Belgium suggests a good night's sleep after solid study enchances recall. ... Our results provide critical evidence that hippocampal activity during sleep correlates with improvement in memory performance."

oh yeah! i forgot bout Hashim! SORRY!!! LOL!!!!!!

double captaincy

havnt been blogging for quite a long time. sorry. no time.

tis week lots of cca leadership positions are being passed down to the j1s. nice to see ur frens become leaders of their respective CCAs. i got 2 new posts. which is rugby captain and Hose House Captain. double captaincy! wohoo! however tis also means tat i hav to b able to balance both academic n work. after a horrendous CT, its time to work. on wed, we had cca leaders retreat, got to meet lots of new frens. my grp was same as the volleyball, soccer n netball. nice pple. we learnt how to apply the sch's moral, vision n value to our CCAs. it was alrite la. nxt wk is racial harmony day! time for hse comm to get back to work.

Hose House Committee Positions
Captain: Khairul
Vice- Captain: She-Min
Admin: Hui Lin
Sports Sect: Caleb
Public Relations: Weiyann

so far things hav not been realli good for me. its like wen theres one problem overcomed another will rise. tis is so irritating la. it realli pisses me off. big time. for the one who has always been toking to me, thanks! u realli made my week better! there has been lots of misunderstandings n confussion. my mind realli havent been working right yet. for those who thought tat i dao-ed u or wat so ever, sorry.
dun feel like blogging now.

college day carnival 2005

tis week has been the most stressful week.. got CS game, oral exam, college day. in summore got to make a few impt decisions tat will affect the rest of my jc life. i hope the decision i took is the right one. after all, i hav sacrifice lots of things just to make tat decision. i hope god is wif me through this decision tat i make. anyway, i mus oso thank a few people who advice me. THANK YOU LOADS! (you know who you are).

CSB lost to com ite n the 3rd n 4th playoffs. even our coach is not there! anyway, it has been an honour n pleasure for me to lead n play wif u CSB guys! do keep in touch eh! we still got nxt yr pple!

oral exam was hilarious. during the convo part rite, i actually didnt know tat the examiner had finished asking me the question. so it the question he asked me was so short n sounded incomplete. haha. so i actually jus stood there looking at the two of them. then after like 30 sec the guy examiner told me to start toking. then i was like.. "ah? u mean tat was the question?! can u repeat it again!" LOL! haha. then after tat got to time to think once he finished asking to i jus like tok n tink at the same time. i hope i did well. then after oral i rushed down for the Com Sch game. Congrats to CSA team on winning SAFSA in the finals. it was a fabulous game! haha.

thursday.. after sch we had the final preparation for college day carnival which was tmr. i had a team coordination meeting wif the house comm people. hope it went well. then we prepared some equipments which require more time to prepapre. final check for everything. went back home super late. i onli left sch arnd 9pm. n reached home like erm 10? went back review college day (CD) stuff again before sleeping.

FRIDAY! College Day! the first project of the 6th House Committee! we met in sch at 8am (caleb n i came 15 min late. haha). we then had a final team coordination meeting by mr ho and I. then every1 went to set up their stations. jL briefed the helpers. at bout 9.45 i went to every station to make sure tat it is all prepared for the Amazing Race. at 11am, 6th house comm was at full swing. station I/Cs n helpers were at their stations. registration took longer than expected cos a few CGs had problems wif the number of people participating. i had the SUPER stressful job of coordinating the Saints Glam (fashion show) n the Amazing Race. yeah. we everything started i ran arnd the sch making n gallery. wah. then got a few time i almost felt like dying. every1 was like toking to me. there was one fella infornt of me asking me things. then some1 oso was telling me smth in the walkie talkie N oso my hp i was toking to another fella wif a hold call. arhh.. but i guess its over. druing the whole college day it was stressed up like nobody buisness n one nice person actually told me to relax. THANKS! it was realli smth to smile about while being in a tension state. i tink overall we did quite a good job. though i tink communication n knowledge was one of our key problems. now college day is over n racial harmony day is coming right up! haha. i oso want to comment on the helpers. they did a fantastic job! though last minute, they were there to render their help to the 6th House Committee people! thank you guys! after college day carnival, had dinner wif a few hse comm members at Far East. we ate at some turkish place. then victor brighten up every1's nite wen he showed n thought us 1-10 steps of taking neoprint. victor the neoprint guru. herng liang n i laughed until we almost died! muahahahaha.

sat spend the whole morning n afternoon at home. realli felt tired. then at nite, watched fanastic 4 wif hashim, herng liang, pius, zong n tiff. movie was alrite. i cant wait for charlie n the choc fact. hahaha. realli wanna watch it.

i tink i blog quite long orredy. time to go rest n do pw. lol!
p.s. dao master a great job well done! LOL!

wat do i want?!

one question keep flying arnd in my head!
what is it that i want?
think properly. think maturely. JUST think la!
wait! i dun even have the time to think! ahh.

its onli tuesday but my brain is alreadi burn out.
decisions. decisions. decisions.

decisions

it has realli been very stressful tis week. college day is fast approaching. coordinating is not an easy job after all. spent the whole last nite coordinating the events together an ended up sleep like 3 plus in the morning. tis morning went to sch only to find the hod not in sch. so went to inform my malay tcher n had a mock oral to prepare me for tmr. now at least i feel much more confident gg for the exams tmr.
tmr is the last game for the combined schools season. CSB will be playing Com ite. looking forward to lead the team for their last game. tmr is gonna b super rush for me. i will b taking my oral in acjc n after tat must quickly rush down to yio chu kang stadium for game.
s56 came to my house yest. thanks for coming guys!
ok lar. i shall stop here.

stress after CTs! what?!

the below post i got from some blog webby. was bored yest so i did tat.
ok. finally CT is over. i m expecting the worst kind of results. yar. anyway no more use worrying bout ur results cos its all over. time to work for the promos. play less. cummon it possible khairul! now, i guess a little enjoyment shd b fine!

after tat murderous physics paper, i went to watch the u14 play their 1st game of the season against bedok south. bedok south used skin tight jersey sia....... haha!

now i m very lost. nrc is starting in like 2 weeks time (i tink) n i still haven chosen a club to play for. but in the 1st place shd i even play for a club?! cos i need more time for my studies. parents say its okay as long as i manage my time. so yeah. jon leow wans me to play for SCC (Singapore Cricket Club). he gave me the form n ask me consider. (p.s. Germuk.. i didnt know tat u read my blog leh!! haha! anyway HELLO!).. mr ng wans me play for SRC (Singapore Recreation Club).. while mr tong wans me play for Blacks. i realli dunno wat to choose.. there is so much things happening in my mind la. n combined schools onli add me stress to my super stressful mode. haiz. there is a game on wednesday n its my Malay AO Levels Oral. i dunno lah. mus call here n there. dun even know if the let me go for the game. but the com sch say they will give a letter. aiyo. stress. n oso another thing which i dun wanna blog.

Amazing Race is fast approaching. its less then a week.. more work still need 2 b done. but i guess we r on the right track. i took the job of co-ordinating both events together. yeah! LoL!

shall not comment on 2dae's game. but yet again. i tink we played better in the 2nd half. proud of u guys!

conclusion (n i tink most house comm pple will agree wif me): exam's over doesnt mean stress is over. haha!

haiz. i wan time for myself! MYSELF!! take a break from everything, i mean everything n jus relax for tat while. <-- my dream tat will nv come true.

no mood to continue.

quiz

KHAIRUL
K	is for	Kind
H	is for	Hilarious
A	is for	Adaptable
I	is for	Important
R	is for	Revolutionary
U	is for	Unique
L	is for	Loving

What Does Your Name Mean?

quiz!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

so late

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEIYAN!!!

woah, yes! i'm supposed to blog about this and i almost forgot!after the horrendous maths paper sam, jasmine, khairul and i went to toa payoh macs to eat/talk-cock/de-stress. halfway through we started talking bout movies and someone mentioned something about watching fantastic 4 and JASMINE LAU FANG YU said "i don't wanna watch fantastic 4! i didn't watch fantastic one, two or three." the 3 of us just gave her the 'omg' look and burst out laughing hysterically. that moment was a classic and what she said was gold.hmm... i'm feeling better now.
-from hashim's blog

nice nice. i wanted to blog bout it too but then saw it on hashim's blog.. so being lazy.. i jus cut n paste. now its like 1.12am n i jus finished studying physics. still got lots more to go. haiz.
apprently lots of pple alreadi plan wat do after their last CT paper (includes weekend too!) LoL!

c div season is start tis fri. All the best Saints U14!!!

formulas n definitions

blog update. so far the CT has not been towards my side. everything is like erm.. duno tis dunno tat. i m so dead. its like a few shockwaves jus hit me tis week. so sad. study oso like cannot ans. haiz. at least tmr got no paper. can rest n mug for phy n malay. everything is so screwed lar. it especially hurts even more wen u actually study for the paper but cant do. now i regret for not being consistent in my work. TAHAN khairul.. TAHAN!!!
i mus start to work hard straight after CT. if tis old problem continues after CT i tink i can go for long service award. no way!!! now i shall start thinking long term which is the promos. no chance of screw up. mus oso now learn how to balance studies, rugby n house comm..
i was thinking.. shd i get tuition or not? but if i get tuition will i even hav time in the 1st place? ohwells.
my body is still in pain. ahh...
one good thing happen, combined schools game got postponed today to tis coming sat.
bad thing: got some hse comm thing n oso game. i don quite like doin things before my game but i got no choice.
monday- 05s56 coming to my house! alrite la!
ok now time for physics. at least if u wan 2 die.. die wif honour!

god please help me!

CT vs rugby

ahh.. tmr is the start of common test! my whole body is hurting like mad n its very hard to study like dat. tat is y i dun like to play rugby wen exams r arnd the corner or worse DURING exams. but i guess i got no choice.

yest com sch B (CSB) played against safsa. the army guys. CSB lost to them as expected but played a very good game. took quite a bit of time to settle down in the 1st half. but 2nd half was better. CSB scored one try by me! wohoo! as all the ruggers would know, my tries are always quick taps from penalty. but i still scored! so who cares! n i played wif my new boots! the colour of my boots n jersey matched quite well. lol.

nxt game is on wed! tat is like during the common test la. pure madness. so its like after maths paper (1130-1330), i hav 2 quickly leave for yio chu kang stadium n play game. so far in my life.. i hav nv ever ever played a rugby tournament during my exams. playing against the CSA team. i hope i will not get all those knocks, cuts n injuries if not i will surely die la. how to take paper in pain? but i m lucky tat on thurs i got no paper to take. so i dun hav 2 go sch. means i got more time to rest n study. for fri's papers which is mt n physics. i wanna get done n over wif the CT n season as fast as possible. i hope n pray i won screw up my CT very badly.

hm.. pple always ask me.. wat do u wan in life? seriously, i tell u, i dunno!

“Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood.”-Marie Curie

WALL

i feel as though i m banging myself trying to go through tis big wall infront of me. i know its impossible but i m still doin it. ahh.. nvm.

tmr com sch B (CSB) playing against SAFSA. bought new boots. old boots spoilt liao.

STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!

haiz

i m feeling no better then yesterday. haiz i oso dunno y. dun feel like blogging much.
still in a pissed, irritated, lost, worried mode. will get out of it soon i hope. very soon.

com sch B vs com poly

2dae in the morning n afternoon spent time mugging! morning spent time studying at home n tuition.. a few hse comm pple decided to grp study at KAP Macs. ls n i waited for phil to meet us toa payoh. phil took a rather LoooNG time.. haha! apparently her phone cannot vibrate so she didnt hear us calling her. however, being patient pple.. ls n i waited for her. then went to KAP Macs n did some studying. mum came n sent us to yio chu kang stadium for com sch game.

com sch b is made up of basically 1988 players. played against combined poly 2dae. i tink we played okay considering the time we had to bond n play as a team is very little. com sch B (CSB) didnt start off playing well. mabye we r trying to adapt to each other's playing style. mabye not. mabye we had little-self confidence. mabye not. 2nd half we came back much better! we were having more ball possesion n teamwork. can see lots of cover defence tackles. great job guys. though rucks still need 2 work on. other than tat it was good. the tries naturally came as we played our game. so now we're in the semis.. i had the honour of skipping (captaining) the team. haha! nxt game against safsa on sat.

now feeling: pissed, tired, not focused, lost. arhh.. wats happening?!

OST

OperationSurpriseTiff (OST) went well though it didnt go according to wat we had planned. ok for those who didnt know.. 2dae is tiffy bday.. haha! we had decided to plan a surprise present for her.

What we planned:
we met at ps at 10.30.. then go chinatown get 17 ballons for tiff. on each ballon it will b an alphabet spelled "Happy Birthday Tiff". Then, on each ballon we will explain y tiff is special or smth like dat la.. cant rmber.. after tat.. there will b the action guys who will then surprise her by giving her the ballons followed by the remaining hse comm pple. once OST is over. we go n mug! €

What happened:
instead of meeting at 10.30.. late commers like me came 11.20++.. so we had breakfast at BK. every1 mugged a little. then every1 didnt feel like gg 2 chinatown to get the ballons so we ended up shopping her present tat spotlight. haha. we bought this nice mirror n oso letters n numbers spelling out "super 17", "tiff" n a house to represent house comm n a rocking horse.. we then coloured the things. the SASes give the 5 cents worth of help n then started to mug while the poor gals did all the remaining work. mabye guys arent tat good in colouring after all. the design i mus say is very very nice. half way while we were doin her present.. tiff saw us!!! she then approached us n say hi! i saw her coming but told every1 too late. wen she said hi, every1 screamed la! luckly.. tiff being a blurr person thought we were studying! phew! after tat. we had lunch at BK again. then met tiff's best fren. together we went to surprise tiff wif her pressie. her reaction was like any other person's reaction! surprised n happy!! jus the way we wanted to see. then took some photos n left the two best frens spend time wif each other. lol! after tat.. a few went to study n a few went home.

tmr: combined sch season starts! haha! playing against combined poly! n oso hse comm study session!

i miss my tok cock gang! where r u pple??!!


"Don't be afraid to give your best to what seemingly are small jobs. Ever time you conquer one it makes you that much stronger. If you do the little jobs well, the big ones tend to take care of themselves." - Dale Carnegie

holidays.. bye bye.. common test.. hello

family chalet was great. had a good bonding time wif my cousins. from pre-sch all the way to working. yeah! took lots n lots of photos! haha! looking forward for nxt yr.

OST is tmr.

i jus cant wait for CT to be over! time to mug!

thanks hashim!

here's hashim hijacking yet another blog. haha.
yay! i revamped khairul's blog too
and i think this one's really nice.
but khairul doesn't know how it looks yet.
he'd better like it or else i'll karate him
cos i like it.

time.

since i came back from the camp didnt realli hav time to blog. its either i got no mood or no time. haiz. common test r like very soon. mus realli go into mugging mode. sometimes u jus feel like letting everything go but u cant. sometimes u jus tink u got control of things but i dont. i seriously dont know wats happening. at times i feel as though everything is crushing on me. i m being sandwhich-ed by my feeling n thoughts n it is sucking all my postive thoughts away!!. my chain of thoughts are very confusing n wierd. now. i hope i don sound as though i got some mental problem! No! mabye i guess its jus stress from everything. dun ask me wat everything is cos its everything!~
relax~~$

i was reading up on an article about depression, the authour was describing depression as something that everyone faces in life. it is the way we feel- sad, down, discouraged, bummed out, or hopeless. she refer to this as "little d". this is usually a temporary emotion that is successfully vanquished by a happy event, or it fades with the passage of time and requires little support from anyone. now the more serious kind, "Big D" (she calls). this kind of depression includes a collection of feelings, thoughts, behaviours and physical change or , in the terminology of mental- health professionals, "symptoms". in addtion "Big D" usually interfere significantly with many aspects of a person's life. interesting eh.

now on the lighter side of things.. let recall (or see wat i can remember) happen during the holidays:
house comm bbq
it was a great success i mus say! though the planning is kind of rush.. it didnt matter. the hose house comm came to my house to get the cooked stuff before gg 2 zhonghao's hse. they were treated wif lots of tidbits! haha! i became a chef for a while. i guess my cooking skills r not tat bad after all cos all the prawns tat i cooked were quickly finished! we oso had tis nice pic wif tiff the ghost. i mus say she is realli freaky wif tat hair. got once wen i didnt know she was behind me, then wen i turn i got super shocked la.. ended up running away! every1 oso was bz taking photos. they played card game n xbox. i was very impressed wif alicia! she trashed puis in soccer la! she is the first gal i see so pro at playing xbox! hahaha! then zhonghao took this video of me playing the light saber and hashim doin the chori dance in robot version. cool stuff! LoL! hashim's shades became the "item" every1 wans to hav a pic wif. if i m rite some got *ahem* after i left.

midnight conferencing
yest had a midnight conference wif a few house comm members. hash, pius, herng liang, weiyan, zhong hao, phil, tif, ros, jia ling. some left half way. haha. we toked for like super duper long la. n somehow u dont feel the time flying tat fast. so much things to tok. they chatted until 5+ but i left arnd 4+ cos i realli need 2 sleep cos i was need 2 wake up at 6am! it maddness i know. haha. n wei yan wanted me to blog that they found a girl name for me. it kimberly. the pink ranger frm power rangers! happy now weiyan? hahahahaha.

others
planning for another conferencing on fri! :p haha!
went back to sas to collect O level cert wif herng liang. we didnt see any1 there except mr gordon goh n ms tan. haha. we came n left as fast as possible. due to some stuff. rite herng liang? lol. then had lunch before hl go to amk library to studies wif his frens n i go home n study. now need 2 go get notes frm my frens. its coming ahhhh!
yeah i oso noticed something. everytime i go out.. i will always see somebody or a grp of pple i know or knows me. esp Saints. be it frm sec sch or jc. its kind of wierld la. i see them in town, j8, basically everywhere. it has been long since i went out n saw no one i know! i oso dun like tis blog layout. i find it every ugly. but then my nice cousin did it for me. blog manager u mus help me change ok? lol!

cant get out!

some things that i jus keep coming back to my mind from the camp:


6th House Comm Cheer


S-I-X S-I-X
S-I S-I
S-I-X

6th HOUSE COMM
6th HOUSE COMM
6 ah 6 ah
6th HOUSE COMM

WE ARE COOL
WE ARE COOL
WE ARE WE ARE
WE ARE COOL
brrrrrrrrrr.

WE ARE HOT
WE ARE HOT
WE ARE WE ARE
WE ARE HOT!
pssssssssssss.

SIXTH HOUSE COMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!


The titanic song


oh it was sad.. oh it was sad..
it was sad wen the big ship wen down to the bottom..
where the husbands, wives n the children lost their lives..
it was sad wen the big ship went down..

Eppo e tai tai


oh... eppo e tai tai
ay-yah
oh, eppo e tai tai
ay-yah
oh, eppo e tai tai
eppo e toki toki
eppo e tai tai ay-yah

Billy the rubbish bin


Rubbish belongs in the rubbish bin, so do wats rite n throw it in.
We can enjoy a world's tat clean.. if u do ur part.. cummon make a start...
Plastics bags, bottles and cans.. half eaten food all covered with ants..
lets see who can feed more trash to Billy the rubbish bin..

1oo years by five for fighting


lyrics later la.

6th House Council Rocks!

house comm camp was fun! got to know MUCH better all the pple in the house council. the best part was it was quite slacking! jus the way everyone wanted a camp to be.. haha. i guess the most impt thing in this camp is not the activites we do but how we got to know others. friendships were forged. great! 6th House Council Rocks!

Day one:

In the morning played stage games. got to do all those acting stuffs. haha. super joke la. in the afternoon played amazing race arnd the whole sentosa. luckily hose hse got she min, a frequent visitor of sentosa! so she was our sentosa guide!! lol! we had to do stupid stuffs too.. like having a game against the pple at the beach.. wen it comes to asking pple.. i tink girls are best at doin such stuff. haha. food there wasnt good but who cares. in the evening learnt songs. at nite was the best! we had candle war!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was super duper funny la. every1 had to travel in pairs bursting other grp's balloon. i was given the task to defend my grp's ballon. i think my shouting n enthu-ness mus hav scared other grp into bursting our balloons. alliance were all made to attack other grp except ours. we even "opened" our base so tat other grp could light up their candles to attack other grps. haha we even had defense tatics n formation la. LoL! n in the end our grp didnt burst a single balloon at all. at nite. yu rong tried to scare me before i sleep by telling me ghost stories n stuffs. but i guess i was too tired to b bothered!

Day Two:

Spend the whole day at the beach. in the morning.. had a very long tiring walk to the beach la.. we made a raft n had to raft n collect salt. we oso had great skills n teamwork! in the bonus round, the seniors blocked us thus we were not able to finish 1st. haha. n hashim too kicked my face. ouch! then we began throwing our instructors into the water. one by one. haha. instructor ken tried to wrestle us but then something went wrong wif his shoulders.
after lunch. the whole enviroment changed. frm a happy n fun became a very tense n scary one. chief pep was like asking us to fall in n then suddenly starting shouting n screaming at us. after tat, we had a mad run to some god knows where place. a few of us (including myself) were barefoot. n the sand was so darn hot tat u can feeling ur whole foot burning like mad. once at tat place we were taught some basic foot drills. like those u will do wen u go NS or in uniform grp. the main reason y i nv joined unifor grp in my sec sch.. u cld see everyone trying their best to learn the foot drill as fast as possible. chief pep gave us like 30 mins. all those wif uni grp exprience taught us. then, more instructors came. during the "test" of the foot drills u cld see some intructors picking on others. the worst was yet to come.. after tat, the jc2 were asked to squeeze. then the instructors began pulling them apart. u could see how hard n determined they were trying to hold each other n not letting go no matter what happens. they were screaming n shouting n motivating each other to stick together. tat realli touched my heart. seeing them doin tat. the gals then began to cry. wen it was finally the jc1s turn to protect their jc2s frm being pulled away. the jc1s were even more determined to protect our seniors. the first round they tried to pull away all the small built pple. but failed. in the 2nd round, the team up n pick on a few us. i remembered having like 5 pple pulling me. 2 on each side trying to make me lose my grip n another pulling my legs making me lose balance. but yet again they failed. the 3rd n final round, i was beside wei an. he suddenly got cramp n the instructors even tried to pull him out. i helped him as much as i could. holding him n toking to him asking him to relax. once it was over. we immediately helped him stretch. wen chef pep told us the purpose of the activity. most pple started tearing. i was such a emotional thing. everyone then hugged n felt accompolished. i believe tis activity realli helped us bond together as one!
at nite, had a "search n resuce mission" one of ur grp mate got "kidnapped" n we had to do some stupid things to find the keys. my grp did so much jus stupid things like finding for 3 spilt hairs. wen we found our grp mate, jedi, i carried him all the way back. hahaha. we oso had to write wat we felt bout others. kind of lame cos we had to paste the paper behind our sweaty back before finally pasting it on the floor but i guess it was fun and meaningful. haha.
the candle light thing was good. all the lights we off. the onli lights came from the candle. we had to come up n toked bout wat thoughtvn wat we learnt during the camp infront of every1..
we didnt hav any lights off! so cool. so everyone went every where. i didnt wan to play cards so i joined the gals for some chit chat sessions. haha. toked bout lots of things. some of the guys also tried to carry the safari beds where pple were sleeping on it out. didnt managed to do to anyone cos all of them woke up even before we could lift it properly. we finally became too tired n slept.



Day Three:


Woke up in the morning only to be greeted by rain. so our plans to the beach to do reflection had to b cancelled. stayed in the dome. we reflected bout the camp n wat r we gonna do after the camp among our own houses. did area cleaning n sand more songs.. i taught every1 the rubbish bin song. finally, had a de-brief by mr ng before gg back. some of us then went to mcdonalds to enjoy some good n unhealthy food. but who cares. after suffering for almost 3 days its time to treat our stomachs. haha.




now its time to study!!!

holidays?!

tis week is the first week of the hols. n i hav been either bz n stressful wif meetings or trg. gee. havent step into town yet. haha. soon soon!! i wan my ideal holiday.. being able to wake up anytime i wan.. n able to do watever i wan! but then.. dream on!
combined schools trg hav started. met lots of new pple. frm all jcs. somehow there is tis kind of akward feeling.. u are now playing together wif the guys who are ur opposition. some u like n some u don. the good thing is tat.. the guys who u dont like.. once u realli know him wen u trg together, he is actually a nice person! LoL! i oso finally get to play alongside wif sugi! tat fella is one hell of a joker la. so cool! is it oso nice to meet n get to play together wif the ex-u16 players. miss those days wen we trg n went 4 our trg tour together in malaysia. it was the best rugby tour i have ever been!!! haha! nxt week still got trg.. but then there is LTC! How?!
wen sch reopen, it will immediately b common test! stress. started studying..
LTC is nxt week..going sentosa!
my calendar is so packed! holiday? wat holiday?!

LISTEN

Education is the ability to listen to almost anything without losing your temper or your self-confidence. - Robert Frost (1874-1963)

lost lost lost

everything's in a mess. big mess. ohwells. it makes me wonder wat is the purpose of all this? expect the unexpected as pple always say rite? ah.. hack it. nvm.

combined school trg starts 2dae. need to get new boots. my current boots needs 2 retire it is spoilt.haha. i wanna to get good boots!!! so far the boots i bought hav all been less than 40 bucks. in the past i used to like to buy all those expensive good boots but since sec 3 i dunno how come i wan 2 budget n cheap boots. even the ruggers all say tat. mabye bcos i always thought tat its not the boots tat makes a player good but its the player itself. so u can be wearing the latest most expensive boots but cant play for nuts. its so wierd. last yr i played in the finals n u16 team using a 35 bucks boots and won. but after seeing the boots the touch ruggers wore during their training n match.. i tink its time i too invest in buying a good pair of boot. in addition, my ankle is giving me lots of problem. so i tink its better if i can get good boots. hopefully it can prevent the injury or at least minimise it. yeah. so time to make an appoinment wif my dad n go queensway to get new boots! haha!

touch rugby

holidays are here! but looking at my calendar i dun tink its realli holidays for me. theres lots of stuff 2 do! n oso the common test which is wen sch reopens. rugby vs studies.. hm.. no idea. haiz.
on the bright side,
2dae played in the blacks fun touch tourney. it was realli fun. meeting the kuda hitam pple. we played very well but lost in the semis due some stuffs. yeah. "stuffs". but the sadest part was tat The Idiots (ex-sas pple) lost bcos of even worse stuffs! LoL! But who cares! Lets not be saw losers! After all its for fun fun fun!!! n i guess other than tat it was great! got to know a few j1 touch ruggers. i guess they had an impressive performance taking into account they had no past touch rugby experience! good good! the last game was the most exciting one! full time was draw n they went into sudden death. every1 was so tensed including the guys too. n they scored the golden try. well done! it was oso nice playing wif u kuda hitam brudders! n hopefully nxt time the kuda hitam n the idiots will join forces! n become kuda hitam bodoh!

arhhhh

there jus too many things in my mind.. where shd i start?!

my weekends!

this "long" weekend had been great. haha. i realli enjoyed myself! finally! sat spent almost the whole day sleeping. woke up in the morning and then went back to sleep in the late morning all the way till evening. i nv felt so good n fresh b4 after a long time. LoL!

sunday was great! in the afternoon went bowling wif my family. suddenly on tat day everybody become so pro! even my sis can get 2 strikes! we had OG35 reunion in the evening. i missed all my OG35 mates. still remember, during the 1st intake, the infamous OG35!!! everybody somehow or someway didnt like us n were afraid cos we look (or mabye we are) rowdy. we met at cath's place. time realli flies fast! we tok lots of photos! whee! we were there until 11 plus b4 gg 2 play street soccer. madness! after tat teck, timo n i went to eat! haha. awsome time there! cant wait for another reunion!!!! :p

2dae watched movie wif alex, timo n gerald. kingdom of heaven was a nice movie. lots of fighting. cool. after tat, we watched star wars! was okay la... now, time to get back to work already. season's over = mug time.

tournament's over.

rugby season has finally ended on 20 May. I think this season theres lots of lessons to be learnt. be it pleasant or unpleasant. hopefully all the unpleasant stuff wont happen again nxt season. sajc got 3rd overall in the tournament. guess we didnt improve nor deproved.
tis week has been yet another stressful week.
i hope i can really take a break during this "long" weekend. which i doubt i can. after the game, the ruggers were realli very funny la.. we wanted to go burger king at novena square but ended up at united square. then had to force our tried bodies to travel to novena square through the underpass.
tmr got OG outing at Cath's place. cant wait to meet all my og mates. it has been long since the infamous OG35 mates met up. wheee! haha. jus hope that i can make it tmr.

You choose the direction of
where you want to be...
today, tomorrow,
or in a distant time to come. (W. Clement Stone)

losing

tat feeling of losing sucks. esp wen ur team played their best.. seriously, tis was the first time i see the team playing to hard.. fighting every single minute during the game till the final whistle blow. but i guess luck jus wasnt wif us. today i played a game i nv played b4.. n all those players playing would say the same too. but u know.. tat feeling is still hard to overcome.. after the game, most of us couldnt even bear to see the supporters.. the worst part is we lost by a small margin.. arh.. haiz.. anyway wats over is over.. its time to look forward n prepare for the future. painful pill to swallow.. anyway, like wat the coaches say.. u may be down, but certainly u are not out!
fri will b the last game for the team. hope we enjoy it.
i guess i m gg 2 hav the uphill task of preparing the nxt yr team.. smth which i realli looked forward too..
n its oso back to the books once season is over.. so many things to catch up..

watch!

hah. now cannot blog anyhow u wan orredy. cannot say what you think bout something for you may be sued if he is unhappy. haiz. wats happening??!
tis week = stress, shocked, happy, sian, = mixed feelings!
arh....

semis is nxt week against rjc. come n support!

stressful week

hm.. nothing much to blog actually.. or tat i cant remember.. the onli thing i felt is tat tis week has been very stressful... its either rugby or house comm. but i m loving it anyway.. except for some unwanted problems.. the most important game of the rugby season will be nxt tue. sajc will b playing acjc. from yest performance, we look alright. can take ac on..

tis week oso was the launch of the 05S56 Panda Club.. hahaha. wif pioneer members Pandarul, Pandane and Pandanth and support from Pandamine, Pandalea n Pandasan we confirm will b the chunkies anytime. keep working Pandarians! All the way Pandas!!

Living.. star!

Living is the art of loving.
Loving is the art of caring.
Caring is the art of sharing.
Sharing is the art of living.

If I had a star for every time you made me smile
I would be holding the night sky in my hand!

beach!

i feel so tired. bleah. yest was quite a nice day. helped out at my madrasah for maulud nabi. helped to look after small little kids. it was an interesting n enriching experience. looking at all the little ones running here and there. the only not- so- nice part is wen i had to bring them to the toilet! haha. oso small kids being themselves.. wen restless.. they will start crying for their mummy n daddy. esp wen the whole event ended n their parents came late to pick them up. other then tat it was super fun.
oso came back very late yest nite.. the last time i went back home at 4am in the morning was after grad nite.. lol! wen to east coast. walked by the beach.. looking at the clear sky! the stars looked astonishing tat nite.. no clouds to cover at all! hearing the waves.. its perfect for relaxing. {one day we go to the beach together okay? i will bring u! promise! - u know who u are.. lol!}

Dream

A dream is a path to the future.
A quiet belief in the heart.
A small secret wish
nurtured deep in a spirit...
Where all great accomplishments start.
A dream is an endless horizon
that only a dreamer can see.
A dream is a challenge...
A promise of all you can be.

House Com

Weeee! I got into the Hose House Comm. Yes! Wohooooo!
I wanna thank all of you who voted for me! Will do my best!

weekends

jus wen u thought u could actually rest during the weekends n b refresh for nxt week.. u r wrong.. tis week has been very tiring. i tink i reach a stage of burn out. need rest. no time. hav been trg almost everyday during the weekdays. n on sat oso got trg. sat trg was at 3 - 5pm. killer session. even worse then fitness. further more, under the hot sun!!! but i tink it realli helped us! mr tong will b gg overseas for a while during our season. so he says we shd over drive tis week. scariest part of the trg was at the last 12 min where mr tong said tat any knock ons during the 10-phase team run in 12 min will result in a fitness! phew! no knock ons!
hm... fri game was bad. its very irritating wen u hav such an indecisive referee. he doesnt make correct calls. i dun tink he is kelong or smth but jus tat he doesnt know the rules tat well. take for an instance, in rucks the oppo were always offside.. the r not behind the last man's foot but behind the ball. a grave mistake which the referee didnt penalise them for. arh.. n we did scrums after scrums after scrums. i tink everybody got pissed esp me. cos even though they r offside, they still dare to harass me in the rucks. keep telling the ref but he keep saying "opps. i didnt catch tat.... but i will take not of it" - which obviously didnt happen. the worst part is jus wen sajc had their momentum going.. the ref had to blow his whistle to catch some infrigment which i tink some didnt even exists. but after all he is the ref.. he is the man.. wat ever happens we shd jus follow and acknowledge his calls. play your game.

the hci soccer team beat acjc soccer team, 1-0, i tink. n after the game i over heard wat the soccer coach told his players- "Never ever think you are great. Cos once you think you are, you can achieve nothing!" . I totally agree wif him!
tmr back to sch = stress n rugby rugby rugby.

the heart

There were many ways of breaking a heart. Stories were full of hearts being broken by love, but what really broke a heart was taking away its dream-whatever that dream might be. -- Pearl Buck

time. tired. studies.

finally i hav found time to update my blog! yes! haha. last week n tis week has been a very tiring week for me. rush here rush there. also. last week the sas u17 won 2 gold medals in jus 1 week! great job guys! they won the U17 Police Cup and the SCC 7s John Clarke Throphy! wohoo! in the finals saints dominated almost every scrum n line out. great performance by my bro. guess the crash course mus hav helped. saints won 6-0.

IRB 7s was sooo fun. finally got to meet up wif the ex u16 national team guys. haha. tok cock all the way. i guess all of us hav fun. the foood on the 2nd day was good! kiwis won the cup finals after beating (trashing) england. haha. great stuff kiwis! their haka was awsome. i was right infront summore.

U19 Police Cup aka A Div has started. played our 1st game against CJC. won them 76-0. BUT it wasnt a good performance. there was no team effort. most players were playing for themselves n not for the team. n we forgot our basics. after yest video session, i tink we r more united now n it was realli a good lesson for us. Reminding us of how the basics for rugby is very important! 2dae got trg. doin team run. mabye all the team need is to hav a common goal! though some players say we hav.. now many players realli tink tat we can achieve tat goal?! tmr is the 2nd game of the season against HCI. must perform as a team! though it will b a breeze tmr (like wat some pple say) we shd take it very seriously as all tis game will preapre us for THE GAME- against acjc. hm.. enuf has been said. haha.

nice!

I'll toss my coins in the fountain
Look for clovers in grassy lawns,
Search for shooting stars in the night,
Cross my fingers and dream on.

7s

tis whole week realli didnt hav time to update my blog. hav been super packed tis week. i guess now back to the books no more jking arnd. tis week also preparing for the 7s during the weekdays. i hav 2 say sajc scc 7s team has performed very well on sat. we won all our games against 3 jcs (which i forgot the name) and united world college.

we hav been training very hard for the 7s n it has realli paid off. so now we r going to the semis which is on nxt sun at national stadium! yeah! tis is once in a lifetime opportunity! so i shall not miss it.

SCC 7s, Sat:
met the 7s team at city hall mrt at 12.30pm. as usual some of them r super late. first game at 2pm. weather is terribly hot. drink n drink n drink oso not enuf. played our 1st game. scored 2 tries! wohooo! didnt play tat well mabye its our 1st game. but as wat mr lenoard ong said, every game shd b better than before. 2nd game much better but still a little crappy. we won though. i scored one try from the center of the field. 1st time in my life having to run 50 meters 2 score a try. hahaha. wen i reach the 22m was looking for support but there was no 1 there to off load too. lol. so got to chiong all the way. 3rd game much more better. beat the daylights of a jc (cant rmber the name). final game was against united world college (uwc). uwc was one of the team fav. most pple thought they would win cos they hav much much more bigger players. but we proved the supporters wrong. we won uwc 38-0! haha. we realli played every well tat game. looking for all the games n trying not to commit ourselves in the tackles as it would b very risky taking into account tat they r stronger than us. then got one time one of sajc player (shant say who) missed a tackle. n i the broke who broke through was 3x as big as me. unfortunately i was the rover (last line of defense) so no choice but to tackle him. i didnt bring the player down but at least stopped him from moving. hahahaha. too hard to tackle him to ground. sheesh. anyways game ended we won. mr tong was impressed wif out performance. great! now its time to focus n beat rjc in the semis @ national stadium!
oklah i tink i hav blog too long orredy. shall stop here for 2nite.

happy

I M SOOO HAPPY!

secrets

And now here is my secret,
a very simple secret;
it is only with the heart
that one can see rightly,
what is essential is invisible to the eye.

orientation rocks!

hm.. tis week has been a very tiring week.. hah.. burnt out. injured. orientation was good stuff! enjoyed myself. my CG is soo cool. we played games but i didnt quite play. became the "team manager". in other words, jus go disturb my cg mates. lol. my cg mates r all very friendly pple. win some games, lose some games. my cg oso got lots of sports pple.. from hockey, bbal, volleyball, cricket n rugby. finale aka Dreams was awsome. everybody went mad. jumping everywhere. running everywhere. super mad. ruggers were together = havock. but still shiok! hahaha.

wed n fri had joint trg wif the sas u17 team. basically did attack n defense. great workout. tis helps the u17 for the semis while helps us prepare for the season. the semi-contact trg at time became fully contact. wasnt quite involved on fri's trg cos of my back! it hurts! LoL! wed after trg went dinner wif some sas u17 ruggers. jus like the old days. but didnt join them on fri. hahaha. sorry yeah! hahahahahaha.

at least 2dae i didnt rot at home! afternoon went for the irb 7s meeting. met up wif some of the u16 nat team guys. long time no see! after meeting went to lucky plaza wif gerald, arthur, alex, timo n danial. ate at the food court n then played pool. haha. fun lah. herng liang too joined us later. haha. nice nice. at nite, ate dinner wif family at east coast. good food.

the pain in my lower back is going away soon! yeah! waiting to go back full on!! season is fast approaching. first game against CJC on 19/04/05. cant wait! haha.

induction?!

induction was.. erm.. alright lah.. it was super physical.. run here there..
on monday, in the morning, got some tok bout how 2 present urself well n stuff.. then unlucky kena call infront of lt3. malu sia.. then after tat got some og thingi. played game.. kena forfeit.. do tat chicken dance on the hall stage.. haiz.. in the afternoon, like most of the time doin jumping jacks.. its super waste time lor... then played some telematch.. where basically everybody was cheating lah.. but then who cares.. after tat still got trg.. but was quite ok lar.. did some box kicks n pad n tackle work... then go home. SLEEP!
tuesday, super tiring day, morning toking bout sch.. afternoon doing PT. great la.. supposed to b in a "game" form but then run here run there.. super tired.. still haven fully charge frm mon.. got my new cg. its 05S56. yeah! hopefully tmr the orientation will b good. haha. no mood to continue liao. tired. shagged.

sunday- grandma's bday.

Happy Bday Grandma!
haha.. ok.. had some family gathering jus now. was good. all the cousins were over. food was good. cake was better. today my tuition starts again. back to the books. tmr got some induction thingi. ohwells. mus bring soooo many things. then after tat still got trg. haha. my rotting days r over now. time to play rugby n study. tmr will b my first OFFICIAL full day in SAJC. hahaha. sheesh. even more pple know bout TIS. LoL.

Never ASSUME
because it makes
an ASS out of U and ME!!!!!

hm.. saw lots of primay sch frens tis week. both frm srjc n sajc. nice meeting u guys n gals again! haha.

you

Cling to your imperfections....for that's what makes you unique.

thoughts.

My inner thoughts, my inner- most secrets, the things I've never told and more importantly the thing I've always wanted to tell, was something in my mind all this while, in my head everytime.

my voice

today. nothing happened. everything was like nothing. nothing. nothing. nothing.

let's see. tis week has been a very bz week. travel here n there. let me see wat i done tis week.
mon: went sch. last day of the first 3 mths. no trg.
tues: results of posting. posted to srjc. then appeal to sajc. sas won sji in the quarter- finals of the Police Cup. Meeting raffles in the semis.
weds: went to srjc. take attendance. joined in the orientation. haz. then went to sajc. appeal was successful. so fast. fitness. went out wif A. go eat good food. yeah.
thurs: went 2 sajc. then srjc. then sajc. then trg. then home.
fri: went out wif family.
sat: rot
tmr will b another routine day and its granny's bday.

parents have been talking bout things lately. which is good.

okay. nothing else. bye bye.

mmmmmmm

more n more pple are asking too many questions!!!!!

bye bye srjc.. hello sajc..

yes!! now i am an official SAJC student! YEAY!
on thursday was a tiring day though. meet javier in sch at 8am cos he needs to get the letter to appeal out of srjc which i took on wed. once taken we took a cab to srjc. in the cab we were like soo happy tat we r leaving the sch. lol. bye bye inferno!!!! so exciting. once we reached the sch. we went straight to the office to appeal out. apparently tats the wrong place go. we hav to go to the meeting room to appeal out. it was the designated place to appeal out. haha. mabye its bcos theres lots of pple appealing out of the sch so need a meeting room cos the office is too small. there was 2 tchers in the room. the one who helped me was a pe tcher. the first thing he asked was... u guys play rugby? then.. frm national team? haha.. how he know i oso dunno.. then we i exited the meeting room. coincidentally my whole og, inferno8, was outside.. the were touring the sch.. haha. so we stopped n chatted for a while. they were like... wah.. u gg sajc sia.. gd sia.. haha. there were even more shocked wen i told them i got the science fact. lol. then waited for gerald to come. so javier n i went to the hall n see their mass dance. -no comments yet again- .. then went to their canteen to eat for the last time.. tat was wen i meet linesh there.. chatted bout rugby. gerald came. took a cab to harbourfront. gerald wanted to eat his Hotcakes at mcdonals. so yeah. then took a cab to sajc frm habourfront! cos was toooo lazy.

wen reached sajc.. went to office.. became an sajc student yeah! they will tell me which og i get posted to on mon.. the went hbf to buy soap. hahaha. after tat. 2.30pm trg starts. fitness was my call so yeah. we did 32 mins of fitness! basically sprints n stuff. hahaha. gd session. we onli had like less then 10 pple. so we called ourselves the Tekong (Pulau Tekong) 7s squad. :p haha. bullshit wif it all day long. had dinner at lido wif ls, joel, arthur, eugene, zh. yupps. then watched movie wif bro, sis n cousin.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERALD!!!!!!!!

1st day of JC life...

srjc = no comments
haiz. had an interesting experience. lack tat "spirit". tok was super duper long. oh wells. i m leaving anyways. dun wanna say toooooo much.
sajc has accepted my appeal! YEAY!!!!!!!!
2.30pm- fitness trg. by me. tired.
tmr 2.30pm - fitness trg II. by me. mr ong agreed wif the fitness plan.
long day tmr. meeting javier at sch tmr. 8am. then go srjc. show letter. get it signed. come back to sajc. soo much travelling. esh.
ok. rest. tired.

interesting...!

2dae smth funny happened. while i was taking a cab to mt alvernia for my medical appointment... the taxi driver knew me?! haha.. he said he knew me cos i play rugby n last yr thingi.. at first scary lah.. but then became amusing.. then he told me the his rugby story.. he used to play rugby in the past.. then had 2 stop cos he dislocated his elbow n then had a fear for tat game. lol! n he told me all his other injuries too.. while going to the hospital.. haha.
jus came back frm kenduri. sat for veryy long on the floor. bleah. ok lah. yay! 2dae i oso finally got my cert. haha. its says:
KHBMK having fulfilled all the requirements is duly admitted to the award of Foundation Certificate in Psychological Studies.
sounds sooo....... haha... cool.. finally...

now reading: NLP and Sports

"Physical skill is important in sport, but bodies do not compete, people compete- with their body, mind andemotions."

"The more you try to grasp it, the more it recedes and you end up grasping at thin air. The only way into the zone is to stop trying and clear away the distractions that are stopping you getting there. One of those distractions is the trying to get there."

"Success we want to duplicate and failure we want to avoid."

"All teams have some outstanding individuals, but the most successful teams have a special synergy and a co-ordination. Every team player still does their best, but not just for themslves."

holidays?!

hm.. holidays r ending soon.. been tinking bout wat i've done.. hm... nothing! LoL!
Lets see.. tuesday had a game wif sas u17.. the u17 is looking good as always.. haha.. sajc team b4 the game like got no mood to play... a few words frm Praba (i tink) had done us good. we won.. but was a very very close fight.. 12 -10.. sajc started off well i guess. brian n i scored the two tries respectively. haha. then after game had dinner wif liang, joel, ash, suhaimi n ryan. ate at the same old place. got sooo many questions they ask.. haha.
2dae went out wif amar n anand.. the sec 2Cs pple.. cool la.. watched hostage.. quite nice.. there was action frm start to end.. after tat watched my mum, bro, sis n cousin bowled. haha. then went home wif sis n cousin cos they wanna play ps2..LoL! then chatted wif A almost the whole afternoon.. ha.. hm.. tats all.. time to go rest. tmr no trg. happy but got nothing to do.
-still reading the book: mental trg for peak performace.. its very good i mus say. hahaha.

arhhhhhhhhhh

MY ANKLE HURTS!! arhhhhhhhh......

a quote

hm.. jus remembered wat my psychology tcher told me bout death:

People die everyday...
Some you know,
Some you don't
Some you saw,
Some you won't
People die everyday...

till we meet again.

last week i hav been both very happy and sad. happy bcos everything wen well. sad bcos my grandfather has left. people come n people go- tats wat my father said. quite true. its either now or later.

thurs: nothing much happened. went for lunch wif A. after went home n sleep.

fri: trg was cancelled last min. went to watch sajc bbal team played some philippines team. sajc team looking good in the 1st quarter of the game. but couldnt keep their lead. they lost. nevertheless i tink they still played a good and entertaining game. then watched the sas u17 team played jun yuan sec (if i m right). referee was early so i had a chat wif him. asking him all bout the laws n stuff. the acsi coached then join in the convo. haha. meet aizat n joe frm national u16 team. joe didnt play cos he was injured.

sat: promoted fun touch at plaza sing. cool stuff. could see lots of sas n sajc pple there. in the evening got call frm uncle. grandpa has passed away. rushed to aunt's hse. felt so sorry n sad but i m jus helpless.

sun: kebumikan the body. rest in peace. was at the funeral in the morning n early afternoon. mid-afternoon wen to PS to see the nat team ruggers. need to take a small break. met wif A. went shopping wif A for a while. A told me tat i will get bored following A shop. haha. actually i didnt la. interesting n fun experience. lol. at least A bought something! LoL!

mon: reading a book- mental training for peak performance. good book!

WM was here

i'm here to invade this stripy shirt's blog!! hello hello.

bye

no energy

nth much happened in sch 2dae. mr ben soh said i did a good job controlling n commanding m forwards on mon's game. trg was super tiring. while waiting for the coaches to come, we practised our receiving formation from kick offs. wen the mr tong came. did fitness. we did 5x width of field to n fro. 5x 50m, 5x25m, 5x 10m n a few more i cant remember. then split into forwards n backs. joined the backs 2dae. mr ong told every1's strengths n weaknesses. good session. my job was jus to pass the ball accurately n precisely as usual. didwat i supposed to do. then hada team run. did the 2 game plans. then 2 end the trg we did a super surprise fitness combo by mr ong. sooooooo tiredddddddd. then had dinner wif capt bryan, liang n joel tan. tmr going sch i guess.

happy

sat played 7s. sajc represented blacks. school kids playing in a men's league. as expected we lost all games but had gained a very valuable experience. some players look more like wwe superstar la. so big n muscular. scored a try.. damn tired.. run almost a full length wif justin. haha. played alongside wif my coach,mr tong.

mon was good. finally had a game after a long time. sajc played very well. it was good. great continuity. forwards oso reacting fast on the instructions i give them during defense. haha. work wif LS as my fly-half bcos greg was injured. LS mus have had a good game. b4 the gane had to give mark a crash course on how 2 play scrum-half. i too had a good game. managed 2 take the opposite scrum-half in almost every scrum. i scored 2 tries. yay! the first was intresting. the team will go far if we keep working together. oso the players who didnt make it play. i hope they enjoyed themselves. playing wif during the 1st 3 mths has been a great honour. after game had dinner wif ruggers.

2dae joel lum nv come sch. pang seh me. cos he overslept. haiz. all by myself. was wif caleb at all the lectures.

7s

woke up late! yay! went for friday prayers. my neighbour drove me to the mosque n back. so nice of him. then went sec sch. met some tchers. u17 has a cool new jersey. haha. the mr tong, mr leow n i ate ramlee burger frm the pasar malam at the open field there. the ramlee burger is awsomeeeee. seeedddaaaaapppppp. after tat we went for the u17 game. they trashed the neighbourhood sch 80-0 in jus 35 min! haha. looking good man the saints u17. tat oso means 7s trg starts earlier. wah. damn tiring lah. tmr still got tourney. oklah. wan 2 rest.

my brothers. champions 2004. miss the old days. tis yr keep it coming.  

the beach at sentosa. cloudy weather. cg outing. 

khbmk at sentosa. cg outing.  

fun fun and more fun

Thurs was a fun day. went to sentosa in the morning wif my cg. actually quite sian of the place but joel lum forced me 2 go. so jus go lah. summore 1st time joel lum got call pple to come go sentosa 1. played captain's ball at the beach. of all game captain's ball- roxxane's idea. volleyball oso was fun. MF keep hitting everywhere except the opposite court. half way through it started to rain but who cares. we kept playing. had to left early to get some stuff n oso go for the band concert. left early wif john.
met mal and arthur in the evening to go band concert. ate at KFC bcos Ar tinks it cheaper as it has coupons. toked bout rugby (as usual). going to miss Ar. after eating at toa payoh went to meet a few other frens. concert was nice. after tat went back wif gerald, cz n yl. they went to orchard for supper. no mood for supper at all. so i went home.
2dae got 2 watch sas u17 play their season game at sajc. then after tat got 7s trg. oso got fp 2dae.

sad.

haiz. jus wen u r looking forward for a game. it got cancelled last minute. damn frustrating. then got trg in sch. every1 got a great fright wen mr tong ask us to use track shoes. but after negotiating we finally had field work. thought it was gonna b some killer fitness but turned out to b pad-work. yes! then boss came to give us a tok. n trg ended. jc2s were bz congratulating the ruggers.
went for dinner wif a few jc1 ruggers. including arthur n akira. feeling very sad tat they r leaving. its very sad to see good players leaving. haiz. took tix frm wei min. mal n i decided to give arthur a treat for the band concert. during dinner i tink no one was in a realli enjoyable mood. Ar keeps saying how much he will miss us. jus then i thought the same. i will too miss him. after playing alongside wif him for 4 years n oso for national team. he is leaving us. could see Ar face turning red. akira oso. he keeps reminding us not to forget him. i keep telling him not to wori. pple like him how to forget?! i hope they wont b too discourage! og35 blog is damn cool. wif hashim's new addition of friends forever video clip. its awsome. tmr got cg outing @ sentosa n band concert at nite. tmr i oso going to do my JAE. dreams. wat r they?

new blogskin.

i wanna thank wenmin for making the new blogskin for me. i owe u one!

i made it.

YAY!!! I finally got below 20 pts. FiNaLlY!!!! yeah. now i can go to sajc n b a real official student. no more of those guest thingi. for my frens tat made it- congrats. for those tat didnt- tis isnt the end of ur life journey. so a new chapter begins..

sajc here i come.