the power of procrastination

arent all of us guilty of being great procrastinators? esp wen it comes to academic part of our lives. we keep giving ourselves the false hope tat there is still time to revise or catch up with work later. wen tat time comes, we continue procrastinating bcos we r so used to it.. knowing to ourselves tat there is already very little time but just couldnt get started. we give ourselves all types of excuses. its an addiction. its like smoking. both are hard to stop. smoking destorys ur health. procrastinating destorys ur future of being a successful person.

WE KNOW THIS FACT. but tat false sense of security n hope we r living in is so great tat it everything seems fine and under control. mabye its jus superficial. deep in our lazy hearts we know tat we are gg to be in enormous shit. but we dont want to face it. we are scared n intimidated. we know tat its gg to be demoralising. we know tat no one is to be blamed but ourselves. YET, we got no courage to admit it. our bloody big egos.

but one thing we do know that we cannot run away from it. FINALLY, comes the time when we are being corner n its about time to face the music of ur procrastinations. this fantasy world we live in starts crashing hard on us. WE shit in our pants. SUDDENLY, we are being drowned by insecurities everywhere. feeling uneasy to even sleep. our hearts can be calm one moment and then beating like mad the other moment. our thoughts in a mess. finally mastering the art of stoning. feeling helpless. depressed. irritated. wen we reflect back, we regretted for not working hard and focusing. boy, its too late. no use crying over spilt milk...we know.. fatigue soon sets in, we feel so tired n sick while we actually have done nothing at all.

one thing we really feel like doing is giving up cos eveything seems to be out of control.. to accept the thought tat we are defeated wen the battle is not over yet though it close. once we give up, another pathetic character develops...we believe we are lousy. good foor nothing. hopeless. basically GONE. slowly, we lose tat potential we once knew we could be someone.

is this the life we all shd live in?

okay. if u noticed by now.. this entry is quite untidy. my mind is in disarray. ok pure nonsense. besides, who cares for what u are gg through? i've already lost faith in the word trust.