cny blast

Happy Chinese New Year to all my Chinese frens! =)

tis morning didnt start off rather well. tried to sleep over it yesterday night but somehow not all went away. was rather moody and stuff.

everything changed for the better in the afternoon when my mother asked me to go for a family picnic. all my mother's side. intially i didnt want to go bcos of my knee and mood. but after they negotiated n stuff. felt rather bad n just follow. first stop was having lunch at east coast park. granny had cooked some food. so we went there and eat. when my cousins all went around to take pictures i decided to jus sit still and read my newsweek and book. haha. still reading the book which i just bought- "mind games" a book on mental strength for sportsmen.

when we got bored of the place, we decided to go to sentosa. the place where my uncle work. upon arrival, parking was nothing to be worried about cos we parked at his workplace and kind of made his office our headquarters. thus, the rain tat afternoon didnt effect us.

since im injured and cant swim while all my cousins were busy playing with sand n water. i found the best thing to do in sentosa. its something tat not everyone can do, in fact very little pple can do. its not playing at the beach. its not gg for a swim. its not the carlsberg sky tower nor the new luge attraction...

its driving a buggy (by myself!!!) around the sentosa beach. i drove from one end to the other end of sentosa. haha. at first it was damn scary cos the beach (from one end to the other) was soo packed with pple. and i had never drove a buggy before. after a few quick lesson from my uncle and practise rounds at his work area, i was ready for the real thing! haha. so i went out to the main beach roads and drive. we drove beside a car on the main road. i drove past pple. n even the traffic police. tat adreline rush in my body, kept me gg from back and forth. until finally my uncle was tired already. so i had to drive him back. then did alittle washing of the buggy before driving my cousins around. i believe this is the best sentosa exprience i ever had. while driving, was so bad to go horn at pple. haha. im looking forward to gg back to sentosa cos my uncle said anytime wen im there, jus giv him a buzz and he can either drive me arnd or i drive myself! wohoo!

was reading the mind games book and find one of my greatest fault. the book explained the reason for being so. i hope its a good explanation.

"... Something else has to drive a person on- their personal sense of pride and satisfaction. This is why many performers can come across as selfish- because they know what they want to do, why they are doing it and they are not going to deviate or be distracted from that..."

"For some athletes, hurting those they are close to is part of the preparation for competition."

"... It may be that top champions need such dedication and focus on achieving their goals that they simply appear selfish."

"...Not only does the sports person have to 'put themselves out' to make it to the top, so pple around them have to make necessary sacrifices too. Friends and family have to be generous enough to accept that they cant expect to come first in the athlete's priorities..."

will blog bout this soon.

cny celeb

cny celebrations is finally over. one of the last, if not the last, event being organised by the house council. in a way, im happy. can finally put more time in my studies and doing things i always wanted to do. plus i still have a few week's off from sch trg.

this week is like super stressful. had to plan for cny at the same time do a mascot for cross-country. was damn surprised when hose won the mascot competition. totally unexpected. but who cares. we won. haha.

scc rugby webby had the dinner report.

The "Rookie of the Year" award went to the "find" of the season - Khairul Hilmi, who despite not drinking has shown so much pace this season that it has left us all thinking we are drinking way too much.

taken from http://www.sccrugby.com/News.asp#article1

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary,
When troubles come and my heart burdened be,
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

no more crutches

BYE BYE Crutches!!!! hope i wont get to use you anymore. dont look forward to be with you either. hah. i shall walk by MYSELF!

okay. its super late and im damn tired. shall blog about my first comeback (to sch that is) soon. haha.

og time

i finally went out of my house 2dae after being home since thursday. the last i remember being home was my last operation. and tat was like 1 week in hospital. and 1 week at home. at least now not that bad. so anyway, i went out 2dae to the coffeeshop for breakfast. was so excited to get into the lift. but wen i reached the coffeeshop felt like gg home. the excitment became too tiring for me. having to travel everywhere is crutches sure needs alot of energy. good workout for the arms. hah. then, pple also give u the "aiyo.. what happened to this boy look".. "so young already like that". quite malu to see senior citizens walking healthly beside me. nvm. soon i will get rid of the crutches.

afternoon was spent for sleeping. knee hurts quite badly. woke up arnd 4pm. shortly after afew og 35 pple came over for a mini gathering. as expected not all are able to make it. but with the pple present it was enough to have a good time. talked cock and eat. watched the spiderman 2 movie on hbo. i had a good time!

tmr im finally gg back to sch. somehow got this mixed feeling of wanting and not wanting to go sch. i want to go sch bcos i miss sch- as in my frens and tchers. but i dont wanna go sch bcos of the of the HUGE workload that is jus waiting to skin me alive. plus travelling around with crutches wont be fun either after today's short experience. i also need to get back the mugging mode (or rather need to start having it) cos this is like the most important year. its either u make it or break it. hah. at least something to look forward and help me achieve that mugging mode is my study kakis. thanks pple.

tmr also going to see the sch physio. want to go for intesive physiotheraphy so that can recover in time and quickly go back trg and kicking arses. alot of pple cant see the full picture. nvm.

"Only he who can see the invisible can do the impossible."- Frank Gaines

off

being home since thursday and doing nothing at all really sucks. hm.. somehow it seems wierd. wen i was so bz with sch n rugby i always wanted to have time to jus stay at home do nothing and stone. watch tv. laptop infront of me. sleep in the afternoon. acting like im not worried about anything. and then wen the time comes. LIKE NOW. u just wish u had ur hectic life back. mabye its just me about not being happy with wat i have. spoilt brat.

this year has not been any good yet for me. everything has been rather off recently too. so much for trying to be optimistic and looking things at a bright side. i feel i have been rather off frequency with quite alot of my friends and i think its all my fault. i take tat blame. some noticed it some dont. to all who are affected sorry.

hospital life

im finally back. not from holiday but from hospital. i missed hell alot of sch work n seriously need to do LOTS of catch up. i have not been in school since monday and will only be back next week.

i went too see doc on sunday to take xray. n it was good that nothing happened to the bones. since my knee was swelling it had to be a muscle(S). n only MRI can actually say wat happened to my knee. n it can only be done on monday cos the MRI centre in Mount Alvernia was closed on Sunday.

on mon, went for MRI in the morning. report came back in the afternoon. was immediately sent to a specialist. according to the report, i tore my medial meniscus quite badly. doc also said that i might also had torn my ACL though the MRI scan shows that my ACL is actually fine but its always 10-15% not accurate. the doc then asked me wen do i want to have my knee done. i replied asap. and he replied THIS EVENING! i was like.. wah.. tis one really fast la. one thing that really scare me to death was that the doc said that my middle meniscus will take 6 wks to recover but during the op if he sees that the ACL is damage and it needs reconstruction, he will reconstruct it on the spot and that means i will be out for 6 months. i was really scared that i might miss this rugby season. the last rugby school season of my life. before my op, melays, huilin n ena came by.

after the op, the first thing wen i woke up was to ask pple arnd me what happened to my knee in particular ACL. the nurses were like... mr khairul you will have to wait till the doctor comes by later and tell u k. being all sedated n stuff i didnt have enough energy to purse in the matter. i just went back to my stoning position. once back in my room, started puking like mad. puke here n there. phil, javier n eugene came by after my op. sorry i all sedated and puking everywhere. doc then came n told me the good news that there was nothing wrong with my ACL and my middle meniscus is "repaired". so this means im 6 weeks out.

tue and wed didnt really do anything much but stone and what really touched me was my friends who visited me. thanks guys u pple really brought that smile. for others u cant make it, thanks for ur SMSes! without u pple, i think i would have just died of boredom there.

here is a thank you from me to all those that came: (i will try my best to remember all those that came)

1. kumar
2. anand
3. keane
4. prash
5. huilin
6. ena
7. jonathan leow
8. romano
9. phil
10. javier
11. eugene
12. nic
13. weiyun
14. weiyann seetoh
15. qian hui
16. louis
17. ashraf
18. suhaimi
19. alex
20. porky
21. gerald
22. zong
23. tiff
24. malcolm
25. herng liang
26. joel
27. gen
28. van kang
29. veron
30. liang sheng
31. weiyan chen
32. caleb
33. kelly
34. stef
35. arthur
36. mr louis ho
37. yew wei

thank you

i wanna thank the following people for supporting the team yesterday in the finals:
1. Mr Ong!!
2. arthur
3. porky
4. touch ruggers!

your support was something we needed esp during that finals! once again a big Thank You!

does glory comes with pain?

good news is that sajc defended the RSN 10s and we are, for the 2nd year running Cup Champions. However, winning this year wasnt as easy as last year. both in semis and finals we went into sudden death. won ite by a golden try and rjc in the finals by penalty conversion. this is the 2nd time we won rjc by penalty conversions. the last time was the national schools 10s.

just wen u think this year was going to be a good year for you, something happened. at the last minute, last second of the finals sudden death, alex broke through, he then gave a pass which was high and i couldnt catch. i jumped. but wen was landing, couldnt see a depression. so my left knee went into it. n yeah.

went to mt alvernia 2dae. took xray but theres nothing wrong with my bones. n so thats something good. gg for MRI tomorrow. i hope the worst wont happen but im preparing myself for it. i hope and pray its nothing serious.

on the whole, it has been a stressful week. catching up with studies, house council and rugby all in one. plus being sick and still trying to recover.

wtf

2dae sucked. screwed up.

I HATE FROGS!!! YUCKS!

rookie

SCC Rugby Dinner was fantastic. i really had an enjoyable time there. meeting up with the players whom u last saw them months ago. we all got down together n talked all night long. at times u felt as though something was amiss. but tats life. dinner was sumptous.

the best part of my life came without me even knowing it. they were giving away awards during for oustanding performances during the seaso and i was awarded the rookie of the year!!! i was surprised to get that award. i didnt expect to get it cos i thought there were more first- year players who were better then me. besides, im still young and there's a long way to go for me.

this award just meant that my achievements and contributions have been acknowledge. i shd not get my head too big and think that im good. its only means that i have to increase the expectations of playing and pple too expect more from me. i need to train harder to meet tat standard. this is just the begining and not the end...

is this feeling a blessing or a curse? hah.

My award.

first week of sch

first week of school was already stressful. had lots of things to do. but it was fun.
one of the most funniest thing that happened this week was the time my classmate n i got lost... with our malay teacher! it was during malay lesson that red n i didnt know where the class was. "luckily" we found our malay tcher gg to class. so we then decided to follow her la. BUT she oso actually dont know. she brought us around school la. in the end reached class 15 mins late! hahaha.

looking at my schedule.. gg 2 b super bz this whole month.. oh well.
im sick!

friends are something everyone needs to treasure n protect.

new year. a new begining!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2005 is finally over! Though the year hasnt been a very smooth sailing one for me, there are still good memories and lesson to bring for next year.

Had a pleasant new year's eve yesterday. 4SE class reunion was fantastic. met up with the whole gang for lunch at seoul's garden. haha. sooooo long nv seen them n it really brings back old wonderful memories. we basically talked bout everything from sec sch life to jc and poly life. most of them still look the same. i didnt eat much at all cos i was bz talking cock. haha. Sorry boys, i had to leave very early!!! I promised I will stay longer nxt yr k!

After that went to Malcolm's place for countdown. Though its kind of plain n simple.. thats wat I like about countdown and welcoming the new year. I dont like being in crowded place and having too much noise. Didnt quite went the place i wanted to go but Mal's house was wonderful! Had a great time there and just before new year, i did something which i hope its right. I hope.