damaged

im losing more interest in the things i have always enjoyed.
i've lost most of my confidence and all hope. the more i find the more i lose of whats remaining. but i really need to get it back.
are friends really what i think they are? good and always there for me? i dont think so.
sometimes i think friends are a one way thing. they will listen to you but they wont let u listen to them or just that u dont have time for them. been in both situation n felt only one thing. useless that i cant do anything to help them.
But wait! can i even help myself? oh well. at least i want to help others.
this phase of life im gg through is the worst. i dont know lies ahead of me.
i want to get control of this but i cant.
i want to do so many things for me and everyone but i cant. i will be too bz wif shit or the person jus cant.

no one will understand n ever would. so its just me, myself n I gg through this.

for the smart ones, who entered my blog by disabling the java script, u are such an idiot n the greatest KPO person anyone can ever see. the fact that i lock it is for idiots like u not to read. so just do me a favour can? piss off. thanks.