Are we not what we think we are?

Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all.

1 down 2 to go

HR Audit is over. 2 more to go - ISO certification and WITs. At least the big bomb is done. I won't meet anymore HR Audit ever. Something to be relieved about.

Think about it...

The only forgiveness we can ever need to do is the forgiving of ourselves for not having seen the other person as perfect and divine. The problem is never out there with the other person, but exists only within us as misperception. Whatever we condemn in others we have condemned in ourselves, repressed, denied and then projected onto others.

nonsense!

Getting sick and tired of things. I also think that things are getting alittle too much. quite pissed off. i mean, being awarded things which I think isn't. Well.. . thats the way things work. aye. im just gg to get done and over with these things.

one word: nonsense.

one down. one more to go.

Audit for my unit is finally over. Only to hear that there is another one coming up in the middle of the year. It has been really though balancing both rugby and work. The days where you come back to work on weekends. Days where u come back on public holidays (spending the new yr at work). Days where u come back camp during ur trg break or after trg. Its all over. For now.
There is definately plenty of lessons and experience to take back from this audit.
On the other side of work, I'm lucky to be given the opportunity to do smth which im passionate about- rugby! Currently coaching and training with the 3 div team.

Currently waiting for- NLP Master Practitioner Course.

"Even though the sky seems dark, believe in the future.
The storm will pass over.
The clouds will roll by.
Believe in the best though it seems hidden.
Know that it will come though it's not in sight.
Your faith will take you through the darkness.
Your belief shall prove that the sun will shine again."
- taken from Pravs World

Merry Christmas everyone!

Back!

Finally back from haitus. Being a clerk, there is nothing much to talk about in my current life. It's only politics and frustration. As much as I want to trash it out here, it would not be a wise choice. I want to quietly get done and over with this thing. Thinking through about what I've learnt so far, there's only one thing to say- never have high hopes here. There will be always something or someone that will definately dissapoint you or so to say, very high hygene factor. To save myself from emotional discomfort, I never expect to anything seriously. Live the day as it comes. Thinking too much is also will be unhealthy for it only brings insecurity. Nevertheless, it will be injustice to say I feel that every minute. There are still tiny moments that will brighten you up, put a smile on your face or just feel relaxed.

Currently having block leave. YES!

just came back from battalion exercise. it was a very fun and enriching experience. although I was making so much noise and try to steal as much sleep as I can. haha! Good thing was that we had fresh rations from the cookhouse delivered to us. Bad thing was that I had ulcers!

went to KL over the weekend. It was a fantastic trip. Made alot of friends! yep. KL will be my next slacking place!

Back to Army...

And so, on Wednesday my MC officially ended and I had to return back to the "wonderful" island of Tekong to report back to HQ BMTC @ 0800hrs for temporary posting. Reported at the manpower branch. Apparently, there was some confusion on the place I should report. HQ BMTC said I should go back to Combat Medic side and vice versa. After waiting for sometime, I was told I reported at the correct place since my vocation in combat medic had been revolt. I was attached to my BMT company- Ulysses. The company just started their field camp on the day I was attached so that means the company line will be very very quiet. Nevertheless, I still managed to have to quick chat with a few of my sergeants before the went outfield. Life then came to a standstill... I was seriously bored to death. Basically, I just have to stay there until I get posted out. In addition, I had to stay in. Since I didn't know, I was allowed to go back on Wed.

Reported back to company line on thurs only to find out that I had to stay in during the weekend (doing Nothing) as its the training programme. Although I am not involved, I still need to follow. I was so freaking lucky that on Thursday I got my new posting! This means I my weekend is saved. Wohoo! The not so good thing- I packed and bring my stuff to stay in, now I need to bring them back. But... who cares! hahaha.

Today, went to my new unit that I was posted to- 20 Singapore Artillery as Admin Support Assistant (aka Clerk). Power la. Located at Amoy Quee- nearest camp to my house. Haha! In my branch, the guys are very nice and welcoming. More good things to come...

I was watching Oprah Winfrey's show that day where they had casts of the secret. Got 3 good quotes from the show.
They are by James Arthur Ray:

"Trying... is failing with honour."

"Your mind will listen to your interests."

"Being unwilling to forgive, it's about drinking poison and hoping for the other person to die."

Good thing, I'm going for physio later. The not-so-good thing is that the dark clouds are coming.

mastered the art of sleeping with construction noises, I have. haha. Able to sleep through it at ease now. The noises are no longer a problem to me. Mind has conditioned it (:

I finally went for my physio at Mt. Alvernia on Tuesday for my back. Right shoulder can only start after 6 weeks according to my doctor. Physio was normal. Went through 2 equipment- smth that pulls you (can't really recall the specific name) and heat theraphy. Supposed to go back on thurs but... physio took MC! That reminds me that I need to make another appoinment soon.

Internet too have been causing alot of problems the past few days. When both my brother and I logged on at the same time, the whole router automatically reset. Got quite irritated that I called the Internet person to check the problem. He diagnosed that the router needs to be changed. Changed it, he did.

Brother is going back to Perth tmr after this 2 weeks study break. Good Luck!

I was reading when I chanced upon this:

" 'I mustn't lose' does not have the same effect as 'I must win'. Say them to yourself and notice the difference. Whey you say 'I must win', you think of winning. When you say 'I musn't lose', you think of losing and not wining. That disturbs your concentration and puts you under pressure. You don't want to losem byt the thought won't go away. It can make you snatch defeat from the jaws of victory."

Taken from NLP & Sports by Joseph O' Connor

Been quite sometime since I blogged. Its not that I do not want to but just that there's really nothing to blog about since you spend most of your time at home. Indeed, I'm enjoying myself just that this time I'm having a good time doing nothing! haha. nice.

On Friday talk to Mr Vaz for awhile. Catched up about all the NLP sessions. Looking forward to the hypnosis course coming up soon. Hypnosis- people have very different extreme opinions on. Also looking forward to mastering Meta Models. Indeed, a very good catch up session.

Saturday morning, Hanhui left to pursue her further studies in Perth. Wish her all the best.

Got my new laptop. Another acer. Its black and I like it. haha. Decided to choose a smaller latpop compared to my old one so that I would be easy to travel around with. Had lots of problems with my wireless initially bcos I'm not used to it. Luckly, all is settled now thanks to my Dad.

Met my specialist today for another post- op checkup. He says that I'm recovering very well. That's a thumb's up. haha. The doc borrowed my xrays that I just took today because he wanted to take a picture of it! haha. He also sent me for physiotheraphy for my back first. Shoulder will start in 2 weeks time I believe.

The bad thing about today is- there's a cacaphony of construction noises. Super noisy throughout the day. The only silence I heard so far was during lunch hour. And now back to the disharmony of music. I got this feeling the fastest they will take is 1 week. My brother was smart and went out. haha.

One quote which I like..
" The doctor dresses the wound, and God heals it." - Ancient Proverb

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUMAR!

Kumar is one of my bosses in school. Also a prominent member of the MelayUnit. hahaha. Without all his advice, life is JC would have been really hard. Thanks!

Wednesday.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY PHIL!

Sorry, I could not make it for your Birthday Surprise. Hope you had a magnificent day today!

Gerald came over my place last night to do some catching up. Great to have him here! Talk about happenings in school and life. Finally, something interesting to look forward to at home. We were like busy webcam-ing or basically, disturbing everyone online. haha. At 12am, we called Phil to wish her happy birthday. Really busy, she was. He left arnd one plus.

Then later in the morning, Weiyann came over to my place for breakfast and much much more of catching up. Busy using the macbook cam to take photos cos she liked it. haha. she stayed around till lunch before meeting up with her friends. Great to have her around.

Later in the day, I decided to do some personal housekeeping. Cleaned up and arranged the boxes of gifts, letters, cards, tickets, receipts and everything I could keep during my JC days. Looking through it brought back the high peaks of JC life. I think I became so sentimental that I even kept receipts of mineral water I bought and all the other random stuffs. The ones that brought back visual memories of JC life were all the letters and cards I read. One item which triggered all kinds of emotions was the house council badge. Brought me back to days of happyness, misunderstandings, gossips, STRESS, headaches and FUN. All these are experiences that I will never forget.

Platoon Sergeant gave me a buzz at night. Nice to catch up with him. He'll be passing out tmr from Platoon Sergeant (PS) course which means he will be an offical PS! Congrats. Next batch of recs coming in this fri! PS bdae is this SUNDAY! wahahaha.

Tmr will be... reading day!

Courage

thank you bernice for helping me to put up the tagboard on my blog! even after more than a year blogging, I still do not have any clue on how to use all these template settings and what not. haha.

As per normal, I'm home the whole day today. I did nothing much other than watching tv or reading.

Let me share some nice paragraphs and quotes I found in the book:

The Book of Courage by Hans Wilhelm

What is courage? The root of the word "courage" is the Latin word cor, which means "heart". Our English word "core" has the same Lation root. Webster says that "courage implies firmness of mind and will in the face of danger or extreme difficulty." A person with courage is someone who has faith that all necessary and energy will be available to him or her in case of need.

The ego is frightened about anything unfamiliar, such as future or change. It doesn't want us to see our full potentiality and our true identity.

When we are scared about the Future

Embracing uncertainties is something most of us are not comfortable with, particularly in times of drastic changes. We do everything to obtain and maintain certainty in our lives to buffer us from any winds of change. We sign up for things such as marriage licenses and insurance policies to feel “secure”. This deep desire for certainty comes from our ego, which can only deal with the unknown, the past. The ego wants certainty on its own terms, but these terms are all fallacies.

It is our soul that wants to evolve, grow, and experience life. And for this our soul needs change as much as lungs need air to breathe. Our soul has consciously chosen to come to this world at this particular time because of all the changes that are upon us. We did not come to hide and hold onto the old. We are here to experience, explore- and also enjoy- all the exhilarating uncertainties that are coming our way. As every toddler enjoys his or her first own successful steps, so can we find pleasure from observing our own growth process even in the worst of times.

Uncertainty is the basis of life because life is change. It is the Gift from God and it is up to us to revel in it and rejoice at every turn. He who is not afraid of uncertainties will walk free in the face of all adversities.

Let us embrace uncertainties as an essential ingredient of our experience of every day. The more uncertainty, the more joy in our life. In uncertainty there is pure creativity and freedom. The fun, the excitement, the adventure, and mystery in life are always in taking some risks. At any moment in our life we are standing on the threshold of the long- sought- after new beginning.


Currently reading: The Power of Your Subconscious Mind by Dr Joesph Murphy

My brother came back for Perth for his term break on Thursday. Will be staying here for about 2 weeks before going back there. Nice to have him around. That also reminds me that some of my friends will be leaving to other countries soon to further their studies. Good Luck people!

My acer laptop decided to take a permanent break and crashed on Saturday night. While I was using my laptop like every other day, the screen just suddenly went blank. Tried to restart and reboot but to no avail. Thats when I know something was dead wrong. Ohwells. Now I have to rely on the MacBook and desktop. Looking on the bright side, most of my data is still with me because it's actually kept in my portable hard disk and not the acer laptop itself. I knew that one of these days these kind of things might happen. haha.

Recovering from shoulder operation is very different from the wrist and knee. It takes much more time and effort. One of the greatest challenges is trying to sleep. Turning on the wrong side hurts the shoulder. Wrong sleeping position too hurts it. Nevertheless, its all about adapting. Slowly but surely. I can't wait to get the green light from my doctor to allow me to start back running. I need to get fit!

Here's the quote of the day:
As light dispels darkness, so does love dispel fear. Learn to love every aspect of that which you fear and you have conquered fear. If you cannot love it, at least appreciate its value, for everything has its purpose for the benefit of your growth.

College Day- 060707

On friday, went back to school to receive the Jacob Ballas Sports Award. Meet up with Joel, Herng Liang, Qian Hui and Pong for lunch before going to school. Had to report to school at 1430hrs which is like super early cos the college day ceremony only started arnd 1715. I guess the reason they made us come early was to take photos by the school photographic society. I took the shot alone since I was the only sports award receipient and mr lim suggested that I took a pic at the rugby pitch. haha. needless to say, my eyes hurt while taking the shot and looking at the sun. Meet up with my other schoolmates, it was obvious that people do change after leaving JC. Can this be that their rep system changes after leaving school? Perhaps this is due to the massive change of environment they used to be and currently in now? (P.S. NLP buddies what do you think?)

As expected, the college day ceremony was long. Hearing the Valedectorian and GOH sharing their school experience, it brought me back to my JC days too. JC life itself was an important chapter in my life. A rollercoaster ride, It was. Nevertheless, these feedbacks and lessons came for a reason- to cause a positive change in me.
Okay.. I will back track alittle.. During the speech I was thinking what was the lowest point and highest point of my JC life and here is what came out of my mind.
LOWEST: It was during early 2006 where I was recovering from my injury. Season was around the corner and I knew I need to get back in shape fast. In addition, academic pressure also have been piling up. Icing on the cake was I also had personal problems. Thus, pressure came from every direction. System almost crashed not for two people. Mr Louis Ho and Mr Ben Soh. I owe them one.
HIGHEST: What else then the rugby finals. Felt really good to win. People say it was by luck. Well, its true. However in this case, luck only comes with hope, strength and determination. Everytime when I look through the pictures and videos of that day, my heart can only beat faster as its being filled with wonderful emotions.

Back to the college day now. Finally the award ceremony started... Very proud of Boon Rong, Arthur and Aldric for receiving School Colours Award. The captain and vice- captains of the 2007 team. Kudos to Joel Tan for receiving the prestigious Meritorious Award, Caleb, Weiyann, Qian Hui and Pong all for being the receipients of Jacob Ballas Scholars. When I was receiving my award... the only emotion that went through me was surprised. Firstly, I didn't expect them to say a paragraph on me before receiving the award. I was staying there not knowing what to do and how to stand while they emcee was talking about me. Being a typical army boy.. I just stood there at senang diri position. haha. After tat, what really touched me were the audience clapping and cheering. Thanks! To bring end the ceremony, we had our one and only Mr Yee to lead us in the singing of school song. Although it was funny and all, I guessed all those who were there felt jovial after tat. haha. I received a plaque, cert and 200 dollars. Never expected to get money! hahaha!

During the reception, I managed to catch up with most of my teachers and friends. Had photos with some of them. JC days are definately the days I will never forget!

College Day Photos