miracles

i do believe in miracles.

ninja assassin

Watched Ninja Assassin tonight with some of my army friends. Good gathering and catching up session. Happenings back in camp. Indeed, my previous unit is a very colourful place. The film was too violent and bloody for me. There was blood basically every minute of the movie. Story line was predictable though. Nonetheless, it was definitely action packed with back to back fighting scenes. Unfortunately, our seats were the second row from the front. At times, had trouble trying to see the whole big screen.

On the other hand, I finally took a train to vivocity today. Yes. It has been really long since I took one.

sitex

Yesterday was the first day I stepped into an IT fair in Singapore. Went together with the coaches after lunch to expo. I had to fight the temptation of purchasing the heavily discounted items. All the "wants" suddenly become "needs". I personally feel that the best products to buy was portable hard disks/ thumbdrives, hp tablet laptop and HD/ Blue ray tv.

Been really tired lately. Probably the heat.

pushing me so far

Weather today was really hot. Come to think, it's not so much the heat but more of the humidity. Getting used to it though.

Refereed a game in the American School in the afternoon. Game went smoothly and quite one sided. Again, weather almost killed me. Hydration is really important.

Drivers in Singapore are have the worst attitude on the road. I got horned for giving way to a bus today by the car behind me. Seriously pathetic. No wonder we need so many "good manners" campaigns. Obviously, it's not working. Driving in Perth is much better. Most drivers have respect for each other. Giving way is a culture.

I starting to miss Perth life.


"I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
Pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same"
- Taken (part) from Love remains the same by Gavin Rossdale

Is God Evil?

Good advert on perspective of God.

Drawing the line

Finally went back to school today to meet up with the staff and boys. I felt happy going back to school. Catching up with the boys was enlightening. Definitely made my day.

Unfortunately, a Singaporean referee going back home during his study break is considered as "foreign" or outside referee. He is not really considered part of own home union. Find that really sad. Nonetheless, a line has been drawn.

"Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat, or the darkness that comes when there is no light."
- Albert Einstein

impossible to find...

It feels great to be home for the semester break. Catching up with family and friends. Unfortunately, the Singapore universities are all still having exams. Looking forward to go back to school later, meeting up with the rugby boys and staff.

Earlier today I was attempting to blog down my semester experience. Just as I was about to start, my mind went blank. I didn't know where to start from. About a minute later, I had a sudden rush of memories and attempted my best to record them down. I will post it once I had edited some parts.


Song (in my mind):

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
that I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you that
I would never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
that I will fall for you, over again
Don't make me change my mind
I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

Lyrics (part) taken from Fall for You by Secondhand Serenade

whirlwind of emotions.

my best

It feels good knowing that you have done the best you could for this semester. Now, it's time for a well deserved break.

Time flies when you are doing something you enjoy!

Next semester, it's going to be a different ball game altogether. Till then, CHILLAX!

Say 'em loud say 'em clear

I'm looking forward to my last paper!

I will blog more tonight.


Free by Lighthouse Family

Wish I knew how it would feel to be free
I wish I could break all the chains holding me
I wish I could say all the things that I should say
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear

I wish I could share
All the love that's in my heart
Remove all the bars that keep us apart
And I wish you could know how it is to be me
Then you'd see and agree that every man should be free

I wish I could be like a bird in the sky
How sweet it would be if I found I could fly
Well I'd soar to the sun and look down at the sea
And I'd sing cos I know how it feels to be free

I wish I knew how it would feel to be free
I wish I could break all the chains holding me
And I wish I could say all the things that I wanna say
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear

One love one blood
One life you've got to do what you should
One life with each other
Sisters, brothers

One love but we're not the same
We got to carry each other Carry each other
One One One One One...

I wish knew how it would feel to be free
I wish knew how it would feel to be free

departure/ farewell

last weekend.

advantage

I am brought up to put others before myself. I learnt that sharing is caring. I will go the extra mile where possible to provide help to anyone. Even to those that had hurt me in the past. I am not a person who can easily say "no" to others as much as I should explicitly say sometimes (unless it's something evil). I respect everyone. I will do my best to compromise and accommodate to people around me. I do not expect anything back in return after I help. I always give but seldom take. And I'm happy.
My greatest satisfaction comes when I am able to help others and see them happy.

It's just me.

It therefore hurts me when people take advantage of my personality. People take my kindness as their entitlement. People start playing mind games with me when I've done all my best to help them.

Please do not take my kindness as my weakness.

going where my heart will take me...

Finished studying for my managerial accounting for next tues.. I still feel I need more practice though but I've completed all the assignments, tutorial and revision questions. Hm.. Probably it's just a state of mind.

Karawara Coles recently got their new check out machine system up and running. It is supposedly to help ease long queues. Effective or not, we will find out in due time. Probably it won't be fair to immediately judge considering it is a new system at Karawara and customers will need to get familiarised with it. An old man I was talking to said, and I quote, "This is just another way of retrenching part time workers".

I bought my bread today for $1 after the plastic wrapping tore. And it was actually my fault that it tore. I felt bad after paying it.

Didn't go for my run today as the weather looked threatening. Or is it just another procrastination?

Going back home soon. Mixed feelings.

Personal.

Song of the Day (parts only):

So lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love to light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone, could you make it on your own

If I could, then I would,
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low, I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then I hope there's someone out there who can bring me back to you

Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind, I'll stay with you for all of time

If I could turn back time, I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make your mine, I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go

Taken part from Wherever You Will Go by The Calling.

big picture

When one studies and takes his exam, he can find it really difficult to link ideas or concepts and memorise details. Moreover, he may have trouble being able to see the "bigger picture" of it. During exams, it can be a real struggle recalling critical details. The fascinating part is only after the exams end, will the person be able to see the whole picture and understand it.

I'm enjoying my (daily) runs.. Makes my brains more receptive when studying.

Thunder or two, with possible storm tomorrow.. Hm...

Today's song of the day is slightly different, it's a classical song :
When Angels Weep by George Farmer

2 down... 2 more to go

Completed 2 papers so far. CIB was rather easy. Things which I studied for fortunately came out. On the other hand, accounting 250 paper was a joke. Ben and I were laughing as soon as we read question 1. Passing should not be a problem. Both papers had lots of people leaving very early. It's very common here for people to leave their exams as early as possible. Definitely a different culture than back home. I think if you allow Singaporeans to sit there for another 3 hours, they would.

2 more 2 more!

On my random side, my facebook seems to be a new virtual gathering place for my little cousins. Keeping themselves technologically up to date.

Im still in thinking about it... There's just too much and I'm not sure where to begin...
Losing control to be in control.


This song really relates to what is happening now...
Thanks AM for the song :)


Song of the day:

This might hurt, it's not safe
But I know that I've gotta make a change
I don't care if I break,
At least I'll be feeling something
'Cause just okay is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of life

I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?"

No regrets, not this time
I'm gonna let my heart defeat my mind
Let Your love make me whole
I think I'm finally feeling something
'Cause just okay is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of this life

Taken part from The Motion by Matthew West

everything happens for a reason

Tomorrow marks the start of the semester exams. I’ve already been looking forward to the end of exams. It’s always good to start the exams on a positive note and I’ve been blessed as such. My grades have been encouraging. I need to start having the faith in myself.

Everything happens for a reason. Be it good or bad. It’s easy to appreciate the good things in life. On the other hand, it is hard to accept the bad things that happened. We start to question and doubt everything around us. Well, the truth is, there is two sides of the coin to look at, either positive or negative. Unfortunately, we humans tend to always look at the negative side first and get clouded by it. We, at times, are hungry for sympathy from others. Instead, let us start looking from the positive side of it. Such things only happen because it’s a test from God. We will not grow and mature as humans if we do not go through problems. We need to go through such hardships before understanding ourselves better and our purpose in life.
(edited)

Whatever you told me last night really started to make me think...
(edited)

pressure

im too tired to blog today.. shall blog tmr.


Quote of the day:

"Pressure is a word that is misused in our vocabulary. When you start thinking of pressure, it's because you've started to think of failure."

-- Tommy Lasorda, baseball manager

All the best boys...

Good luck to the Saints 7s squad playing in the semis later! Be confident and positive!

sleeping hours..

I can't seem to see the picture when it comes to cash flow statements. It kind of frustrates me. Probably my brains will process it in my dreams and enlightment me later when i wake up.

I miss my old sleeping routine.. :(

Looking forward to the end of exams!!!! :D

I found the perfect song for the day:

Always Look on the Bright Side of Life by Monty Python

Some things in life are bad
They can really make you mad
Other things just make you swear and curse.
When you're chewing on life's gristle
Don't grumble, give a whistle
And this'll help things turn out for the best...

And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life...

If life seems jolly rotten
There's something you've forgotten
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing.
When you're feeling in the dumps
Don't be silly chumps
Just purse your lips and whistle - that's the thing.

And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life...

For life is quite absurd
And death's the final word
You must always face the curtain with a bow.
Forget about your sin - give the audience a grin
Enjoy it - it's your last chance anyhow.

So always look on the bright side of death
Just before you draw your terminal breath

Life's a piece of shit
When you look at it
Life's a laugh and death's a joke, it's true.
You'll see it's all a show
Keep 'em laughing as you go
Just remember that the last laugh is on you.

And always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the right side of life...
(Come on guys, cheer up!)
Always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the bright side of life...
(Worse things happen at sea, you know.)
Always look on the bright side of life...
(I mean - what have you got to lose?)
(You know, you come from nothing - you're going back to nothing.
What have you lost? Nothing!)
Always look on the right side of life...

one moment in time

Went for financial accounting 250 consultation this morning. It was short and productive session. Managed to ask my tutor about some of my doubts in PPE and CT. Spent the whole day just practising questions over and over again from the revision pack. I hope I'm ready.

It really frustrates me when one tells another person not to be emotional (or in slang, emo). I strongly believe everyone has the very right to be emotional. If you're telling me you can't, you are either not human or seriously in need of professional help. Therefore, stop being stupid, irritating and idiotic by telling another person "dont be emo". If you claim it's a figure of speech, it's the worst one, seriously. It is obvious that the person is feeling emotional and there can be plenty of reasons contributing it. By you saying that irritating line, you are not respecting him as your friend and individual. He definately has issues and as a friend you are supposed to help him in anyway possible. So gents, grow up. Be more receptive of your friend's emotions. Further more, if you are going to say that to someone who is currently feeling emotional, you will make him worse. Unless, that's what you want.

Finally had a run today. I feel more refreshed and focus. Night mugging probably? Or just sleep? Hm....

I need to start filtering my "friends" in fb... After exams!

Quote of the Day:
"I am the master of my fate; I am the captain of my soul." - William Ernest Henley, 1875

Lyrics of the Day:

Each day I live
I want to be
A day to give
The best of me
I'm only one
But not alone
My finest day
Is yet unknown

I broke my heart
Fought every gain
To taste the sweet
I face the pain
I rise and fall
Yet through it all
This much remains

I want one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel
I will feel eternity

I've lived to be
The very best
I want it all
No time for less
I've laid the plans
Now lay the chance
Here in my hands

Taken (part) from One Moment In Time by Whitney Houston

Move on

"Stop being prisoner of your past, become the Architect of your Future"
- Taken from Pravsworld.com

Sunset

Current REDCON status for my units:
Accounting 250 : REDCON 2B
CIB: REDCON 2A
Law 222: REDCON 2B
Accounting 101: REDCON 2A

This is indeed positive. Nonetheless, there's still more work. Came back slightly earlier today and noticed the sunset as I studying. My room is one of those "lucky" few that has the sun shining in when it's setting. As it was a slightly cloudier day today, the sunset was surprisingly nice. I was just thinking, I hope not a room facing the sun rise or set. This is especially during summer where it rises very early and set very late.

As exam is approaching, everyone is studying hard (or at least I hope). One of my frequent study places is the library. Interestingly, I noticed that most people actually are on facebook. Be it on the uni's computer or desktop. And I'm no exception. It's amazing how the virtual world influences our life. There is definately pros and cons attached to it.

I also know it's a little too late, but I finally bought a coffee mug!

Lyrics of the Day:

Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back
Would you cry if you saw me crying
Would you save my soul tonight?

Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh oh please tell me these
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight?

Taken (part) from Hero by Enrique Iglesias.

My Prayer

Dear God,
Please give me the strength and wisdom as I make the most important decision in my life. I know the decision I need to make will have a major impact in my life in the long run. Please tell me what I should do. For you know what's best for me more than I know myself. I seek your guidance. Please show me the path.
Bless me with a calm and peaceful mind as I enter this stressful phase of life. For you are the source of hope and serenity. Please shelter me from unnecessary distractions. Provide me with concentration and time management as I prepare and sit for my exams. I understand that I have to work hard and leave the rest in your hands. Thank you God for giving me this opportunity to grow as a person both spiritually and academically.
I hope you will bestow my prayer.

Prayer

I miss those days where we come together as one team praying for a common goal...

I think God can explain....

Currently still at REDCON 2B for exams. Hopefully by tmr, I am able to move up to REDCON 2A.

Studied in the library with Akhil, Singaporean hostel friend today. Talked quite a bit about our national service during lunch and study breaks. It was really funny. Nonetheless, it was still productive studying session. Just got my flight ticket confirmation back home.

Have you ever wondered... what your life would really be like.. if you are the person you really want to be? Is the future/ outcome going to be really what you thought it would be?
I really wonder... hm...

I like this idea of expressing my thoughts and emotions of the day through lyrics of songs. At times, it may not really express fully what I feel but it comes close to it. Most times, very close. Interestingly, there are days where I only like parts of a song and not it as a whole.
There are just some songs that one will get attracted to throughout the day or weeks or even months. Probably, the meaning of the song, through lyrics or tune, has a subconscious effect on one's feelings or thoughts. It could be from the past- of what had happened. Present- what one is currently going through. Or future- what one hopes for or expects...

The beauty of life is its complexity...

Therefore, here goes the lyrics to express my day:

There's a lot of things I understand,
and there's a lot of things,
That I don't want to know.
But you're the only face,
I recognize, It's so damn sweet of you,
to look me in the eyes.
It's all right, I'm O.K.,
I think God can explain,
I believe I'm the same,
I get carried away
It's alright, I'm O.K.,
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed,
I'll get over it yet.

Taken (only some parts) from I Think God Can Explain by Splender.

accounting mircale

Surviving the Financial Accounting revision lecture today was indeed a miracle. It had to happen on such a lovely sunday from 0900hrs to 1600hrs. Nonetheless, I'm surprised myself to have actually paid alot of attention during the lecture. It's not easy especially when you have no interest in accounting. One thing which I can never get and laugh at is the accounting jokes the lecturers were making. To me it's not funny at all, probably that's because I don't understand!

Time really flies this semester. I feel as though it's only the begining... Well.. very soon I will be back in Singapore for the summer break. I will meet most of my friends back here next semester. But also, will miss a few closer friends who will go back to their countries. I never did like farewells. I prefer to come and leave as quietly as I can. Not because I'm bad but I hate the emtional part of farewells.

Going to have a real busy and hectic schedule this summer with lots of work and trips. I hope I really will be able to take a proper break this summer. I hope. I wish. I pray.

Next week, life is going to be routine and monotonous. Library will be my new home!


Lyrics to express my mood for the day:

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,
Oh lets go back to the start.
Running in circles, Comin' in tails
Heads on a science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.

Taken from The Scientist by Coldplay

As much as this song expresses my mood for the day, it also has a significant meaning in my life and 27 others. This was our Under 17 National Schools Rugby Police Cup Team song. That was the season where no one has ever thought we could win. Not many had believed in us, but We did among ourselves. We proved them wrong! We brought the cup back home after 11 years.We had been physically and mentally battered. Pain was just a state of mind. We did all this just to gain back our respect from our peers and teachers which we lost 2 years before.