Change

Since I came here in July, alot has change and is constantly changing. Lets start with the environment, pressure is taboo here. People are encouraged and motivated to achieve the best they can without society's pressure. At the end of the day, they believe in enjoying what they do. Be it study or having fun.
I've learnt that balance of both work and play is important to be happy and successful.
I've learnt that the only pressure that matters should be coming from yourself. I've learnt that ask if you are unsure. I've learnt that keeping fit makes your brains work better.
More significantly, I've learnt that we need to live my the decisions we make. Sometimes it's just not the way you want it to be but you feel reponsible for. I know that at the end of the day, no one or thing can stop you from making any decisions you want. It's your life and only you are accountable for it be it to God or any higher being. Therefore, one's decision usually weighs on whether it's right or wrong (moral), what is important, what they feel more responsible for. Unfortunately, this year, I've made a some bad decisions. It is definately a painful lesson and I take full ownership for the outcome.

I've noticed that even as an individual too, I've changed. For the better I hope. I know I have a perfectionist attitude. I know that once I believe or want something, it's really difficult to convince me otherwise. I can be very stubborn. I know my priorites. I need my personal space. I cant disagree that understanding or working with me at times can be very challenging. At the end of the day, I'm task orientated, at times too much of it. Putting others before myself has always been my principle in life. I strongly believe in giving and not taking anything back in return. I'm critical even with the little things. I'm just different.

Emotions. That's a big thing for me. Something which is always kept to myself and not shared with others. Not even to the closest. I'm aware that it's not good. Give me time, I'm learning. It has been hurt more than once and needs time to heal. There are so many things I want to express and share with others. In particular, the person(s) who are really important to me.

I do hope now you are able to accept me for who I am.