grandslam

Yet another productive day today. Managed to finish up some financial accounting topics in the library today. I pray that I can stay focused during the revision lecture tomorrow, yes Sunday, from 0900hrs till 1600hrs.

On the lighter side of things, managed to catch the wallabies vs all blacks game. Wallabies actually started rather well putting good pressure on the all blacks. Unfortnately, the table turns around in the 2nd half. Not surprising, all blacks switched on their game and took the win. Good luck Wallabies for your grandslam tour! Thereafter, rushed down to the end of semester (halloween) party at erica. Like everyone else, just went there for the food and mingle with hostel mates. Caught the semis of the Air New Zealand Cup between Wellington and Soutland. Very dynamic game but kind of boring towards the end.


And the semester is coming to an end! :(


Got this from Brian Tracy's Quote of the Day:

"We must have perseverance and above all confidence in ourselves. We must believe that we are gifted for something and that this thing must be attained."

-- Marie Curie, physicist


Lyrics to express my mood for the day:

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Lyrics taken from Wonderwall by Oasis.

Ops SEMEX (Operations SEMester EXams)

Did some productive studying in the library today. Managed to focus and achieve my studying objective. Only downside was a group of students behind me gossiping loudly about another guy. I don't mind them gossiping or anything but they should keep the noise level down at the very least. If not, go to the cafe or something. Not everyone wants to listen to grapevines. Nonetheless, studying in the library is a better alternative for me in the morning. It gets me out of bed and makes me stay away from it! Will do that from now on.
In military terms, I'm currently on REDCON 2B for Ops SEMEX. Not good at all! By next week, I need to be REDCON 1 or at least 2A, definately.

Started my daily running regime since two weeks. Been running almost everyday keeping fit to referee the upcoming NRC season back home. More importantly, it is a good break to have, after sitting down studying for the whole morning and afternoon. Healthy body, healthy mind right?

It's really nice to be able to keep in touch with the boys back in school. Good to know that they are doing well and still surviving for those taking their O levels. As they finish their Os, I will start on my exam. hah! For the younger ones, time to hit back the field and track. This is when you are going to start complaning that rugby is taking too much of your holiday time away. I'm sure some of them are already thinking of excuses to skip training. Been there before, worse actually. But that's the sacrifice you need to make, to win. Winning never comes easy. I believe there are quite abit of tournaments coming up before the Christmas break. Good way to gain all the experience they need. Wish them all the best for the upcoming SCC 7s.

Why must two things occur at the same time? Bledisloe Cup (Aus vs NZ) or Erica's End of Semester (Haloween) Party? Hm.. here we go again.. another decision to make. Brains already getting over heated of making too many important decisions this week. Of which I know some decisions have upset others.


Lyrics to express my mood for the day:

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

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Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Taken from Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol

Change

Since I came here in July, alot has change and is constantly changing. Lets start with the environment, pressure is taboo here. People are encouraged and motivated to achieve the best they can without society's pressure. At the end of the day, they believe in enjoying what they do. Be it study or having fun.
I've learnt that balance of both work and play is important to be happy and successful.
I've learnt that the only pressure that matters should be coming from yourself. I've learnt that ask if you are unsure. I've learnt that keeping fit makes your brains work better.
More significantly, I've learnt that we need to live my the decisions we make. Sometimes it's just not the way you want it to be but you feel reponsible for. I know that at the end of the day, no one or thing can stop you from making any decisions you want. It's your life and only you are accountable for it be it to God or any higher being. Therefore, one's decision usually weighs on whether it's right or wrong (moral), what is important, what they feel more responsible for. Unfortunately, this year, I've made a some bad decisions. It is definately a painful lesson and I take full ownership for the outcome.

I've noticed that even as an individual too, I've changed. For the better I hope. I know I have a perfectionist attitude. I know that once I believe or want something, it's really difficult to convince me otherwise. I can be very stubborn. I know my priorites. I need my personal space. I cant disagree that understanding or working with me at times can be very challenging. At the end of the day, I'm task orientated, at times too much of it. Putting others before myself has always been my principle in life. I strongly believe in giving and not taking anything back in return. I'm critical even with the little things. I'm just different.

Emotions. That's a big thing for me. Something which is always kept to myself and not shared with others. Not even to the closest. I'm aware that it's not good. Give me time, I'm learning. It has been hurt more than once and needs time to heal. There are so many things I want to express and share with others. In particular, the person(s) who are really important to me.

I do hope now you are able to accept me for who I am.

decisions

we live by the decisions we make... be sure.. be wise.. for we will be responsible for the outcome.

This was the thought of the day. In a few days time I will need to make really important decisions of what I want to do in both the short and long future...

thoughts and emotions

As I was driving back from K’s place, I started wondering all the things, thoughts and emotions I had ever since I came to Perth. Having a chance to start fresh in a new environment certainly was exciting and one which I have always looked forward to. As the semester is coming to an end, I start to reflect on the decisions I’ve made and actions I’ve done. Some thought provoking questions hit me:-
-Am I doing a course which I really want?
-What do I want to do in the future?
-Are the things I’m doing helping me to achieve what I want in the future?
-Are my priorities set correctly?
-What do I really want to achieve in this semester?
-Have I settled down?
-Am I who I am?
-Am I able to express my thoughts and emotions the way I want/ should be?
-Is both work and play balanced?

Knowing me.. My thoughts and emotions are always kept to myself.. I want to share.. but I can't.. Not that I don't want to.. But I don’t know how...

Try

Watched the film "Fame" today. Obvious story line but some of the songs were really nice. I like this one in particular:

Try by Asher Book

If I walk, would you run
If I stop, would you come
If I say you're the one, would you believe me
If I ask you to stay, would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me
The world is catching up to you
While your running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe I'm not ready

But I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If I sing you a song would you sing along
Or wait till I'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If I give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful
Am I catching up to you
While your running away, to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe I'm not ready

But I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me

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One would feel so much for a song only if it has alot meaning to him... True or not? Hmm...

done with reports

Yes. I am finally done with all my assignments, presentations and reports. Last phase is the exams! I will blog in more detail next time. For now, I'm just too tired to do anymore intesive thinking! Time to chillax... That's righttt.....

feelings

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

-- Maya Angelou, Poet

44 hours no sleep

The last time I slept was 44 hours ago.. Need some sleep now. Today has been a good day. Managed to do things which I needed to. (:

presentation

The past two weeks had been really hectic. Assignments and presentations to complete and not forgetting, semester exams coming up real soon. My results from all my assignments have been very positive and encouraging so far. I find Accounting 250 a real pain though. More importantly, today was my CIB presentation. On the whole, I thought my group did quite well and was relieved when it ended. This also marks the end of my presentations for the semester. I would actually prefer to do presentations compared to assignment. Most people would beg to differ though.

Last weekend, believe it or not, I actually went to Caversham Wildlife Park. Animals and I have never liked each other. Honestly, I don't even know what made me choose to go. Perhaps may have fell for the powerful persuasion of my friends, aka peer pressure. The trip was little traumatic for me although I must agree, I had fun. It was also my first time, after a very long time, that I touched a kangaroo! Impressive huh! Managed to also met and take photos of the 2 llamas there just for my lovely little sister.

Running could be a way of letting go one's negative thoughts and emotions.

Safety

How much and to what extent of risk should we take? Or forever be on the safe side.

calculated risk

Directions

Having a sense of direction is one thing, Following it is another.

Quality

"It's the little things that make the big things possible. Only close attention to the fine details of any operation makes the operation first class."

-- J. Willard Marriot

Dead?

This blog may seem to be dead with the last entry on 26 Apr 09. Or some people may put it in nicer term- permanent haitus.The truth is it's not. The reason for not publishing my entries is simply because I've wrote expressed alot of personal thoughts and emotions. This of which should either be kept to myself or people who are really close to me.

Nonetheless, in a nutshell, here is what had happened since I completed my national service:

- Worked with Saints as I waited for Uni.
- Saints B Div won back the Police Cup.
- The boys shaved my head bald on my ORD day.
- Left for Perth to start uni at Curtin.
- Actually prefer the lifestyle here. You are not as pressured by the environment. No such thing as competition unless you want to challenge yourself with the C_____ students. I get to put more focus on developing my refereeing skills knowing I can keep up with my school work.
- Met some really good friends here.
- Hostel life is not as uncomfortable as I thought it would be. It can actually be really fun.

More importantly, I've been asking myself, what do I really want to do for the rest of my life? That will need revaluating my priorities and beliefs.

For now, I'm enjoying every moment of my life! :)